Cervical as in my neck vertebrae, lol, not my lady bits. Believe me, if this was as easy to fix as a hysterectomy I’d be all over it.
Thanks for the good wishes!
Jingles for your heart ~ ((hugs))
ok i understand ```` Jingles for your heart ~
I feel like I should add . . . Or maybe explain.
In 1997 I had a rotational fall at a corner while schooling. It’s was no one’s fault, footing had given way as the horse tried to take off, and he struck the jump above the knee. We hit the ground and rolled together, and in the ensuing melee, he put a front foot on the back of my neck as he flailed to stand up. The force punched out the back of my helmet, and dislocated for lack of a better word my c1 and c2.
Obviously, it’s a miracle I’m not dead or paralyzed.
I’ve had up periods and down periods since then. Immediately post injury I was off a horse for almost 2 years. I fought my way back, got back to riding, even competed through prelim again, etc. but about 3 years ago I started having problems again. Nerve pain, numbness in my limbs, and pain all the time. It got to the point that I couldn’t ride at all without being in agony.
A year ago I started into intensive physical therapy, and it has helped enough I’m back to riding two horses a day. But they are not the big movers and jumpers, and I can’t ride pullers at all. I’ve tried multiple times to ride my guy, and the last time I wound up in the er, for nothing more than a spectacular, lofty canter-trot-canter transition. But as his back lifted me, I felt something shift and I was in agony. Nerve pain, double vision, vertigo, etc.
It’s not impossible I will continue to recover–but it will be over a course of years, and it’s equally possible this is the best ill ever be. If I want to ride at all, I have to be picky about what I sit on. And sadly, my lovely, lovely horse is not going to work for my new reality.
Sux. Thanks for all the kindness.
Awww I’m sad for you 
My little WB (who looks HUGE to me) is like yours, though I didn’t breed him; I found him in a field, unregistered, at 2.5 and not even halter broke. So I sorta brought him along. But yeah, I thought he’d be way too much horse for me, but I love his personality so much I couldn’t sell him, I’d have to lease.
Is leasing not in the cards at all??
Not all is lost…
I too had a home bred I assisted in his birth ( he tried to come with a leg back and I had to go in re-position as vet not available), broke him, he broke me! We evented and showed together until he was 9. He did not owe me a thing. Was always a total Irish gentleman, he made me look like a better rider than I was.
Out of the blue I was asked if he was for sale. Long story short I ended up selling him to the most amazing people. I will tell you I have taken so much pleasure and joy in watching my homebred heart horse take his new owner and make him look like a better rider than he was. I got to watch a fellow rider gain confidence and find confidence, joy in riding, and love for eventing because of my horse I bred loved and trained. I met and continue to have two wonderful people in my life because I shared homebred heart horse with fellow horse people. And we shared the grief and cried together when he was laid to rest during colic surgery as survival would not have been possible.
Yes it is not the same as riding and competing them yourself and the pleasures and successes that bring; but there is a different and equally sweet pleasure in watching someone else have success and sharing the wonder, amazement and love of a special horse.
I pray that your heart horse goes to some amazing new owner and you will experience the joy that I did when I chose to share my blessing with a fellow horseman in this world.
Sometimes doing the right thing sucks. Major hugs.
