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I just want to say, publically, you are a credit to this sport. I cannot imagine any rider, after some time in the seat not having had such an experience. Yes, more of us need to not only come out and share such a moment, we also can use it as a teaching moment so others start to do the same. Maybe even those ULR that live in glasshouses and don’t consider how much we see might try confession out for size.
I’ve never had the opportunity to hit my horses, but I remember one time with Sterling, I was practicing, I was not in a good mood, and he “seemed” to not want to listen and Do What I Say! It got to the point where I start to just yank his head around and just get rough. Then it hit me, hard, it was not that he wasn’t listening, he couldn’t hear me for all the shouting I had been doing with my body. I am surprised he didn’t try to buck me off.
I felt horrible for I knew better, but the job, the day, the frustration of not “getting it” just blew away reason and feeling. For a long moment I sat there feeling like crap then made a decision. We walked off on a long rein, I wiped tears from my eyes, I patted his neck, I let him be, I fought the demons in me. Finally after sometime I gently asked, as I picked up the reins, if he’d like to …and he just stepped into trot before I could finish the question. “No worries Dad, just stop shouting and getting angry with me”.
I confessed to my trainer (she always knows somehow), we worked on the problem, but most important, I moved forward from that moment. I became much more aware that if there is a issue, look at the human first. Don’t take it out on the horse. Since then, when I can’t “get it” I change the question and finish on a good moment. Amazing what horses teach us when we listen to them.[/QUOTE]
Its funny you bring this up. I had a rare day a bit like that on Tuesday and yes I feel less than pleased with myself. Then again, I’ve also been around this long enough to know horses have days they don’t want to work with you either.
I’m working on getting my horse to stretch down and out while pushing forward. She’s figured out forward is not optional and working across the back is HARD. So she’s trying to barge through the front door now. We had session of “Dammit, stop rushing through my hands, and bracing. Rein back, get your butt under you and we can go forward when you stop being dramatic” This took a while. Not as sympathetic as my normal approach, I lost my patience more than I’d like. It sucks, I’ll try harder next ride.
Then again, as soon as she did as requested I let it go. And we got what I asked for, peacefully. She tried, I tried, we achieved and then on to other things.
And maybe someone watching us for that moment in time would have thought I was a rough, handsy, impatient jerk of a rider. Maybe in the moment they were right. Maybe in the moment, my mare was acting like a bit of a 1500lb toddler who needed limits clearly set. Maybe it was somewhere in the middle.
None of us are perfect, lowest smurf to highest Olympian. The danger is when we can’t acknowledge, reasonably discuss or analyse what went wrong; whether in the moment or later.