Kristi, I am so very sorry. I only met you & your son once when I came to look at Winston at that barn in Stafford, but it was clear that you loved him so much and he was a beautiful and sweet little fellow. My older brother died suddenly at 34, and I know that there is no way to understand the loss a mother feels. Sending hugs your way.
Nadanesjsi I had a friend loose his 8 month old. It was one of the most horrible events that I have ever had to witness. I kept thinking at the time it would have been better if the baby had died when it was first born, that somehow the pain would have been easier for him.
I know now from talking to him that he considers every minute that he was able to spend with his son was better than nothing at all. I am hoping in time you can not see this as a loss, but as having a wonderful opportunity to love a little person that is from you, who has his own personality, his own likes and feelings, and was obviously loved extrememly by his family.
No one knows what to say because most of us never have to deal with such a unbelievable loss. I can only say that I wish you the best, and you need to be strong in the months to come. My deepest condolences…
I am very sorry. My deepest condolences… 
So very sad
As a mother of 2, I can’t imagine losing a child.
My deepest condolences got out to you and your family.
So so sorry.
I pray you find peace.
How horribly sad, my deepest condolences to the family. Godspeed, Jamie.
Words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.
so sorry…sending prayers and jingles. So short a life for such a beautiful boy.
bursting out of sun filled skies,
a special butterfly
he dances and sings, whirls and leaps,
afore he lays his head to sleep.
Ok everyone here I am. This is Nadanejsi. I can’t log in as myself so I had to make a new profile. Hopefully, the admins… will fix my status and switch all of my info for Nadanejsi to this new name Nootka.
Well, I can’t thank anyone more for all of the support. Erin came to the viewing on Thurs night and I was sooo happy to see her. She came a long way to go to the viewing.
I am so numb right now this pain is to much right now. My son was born to help our family cope with the loss of my sister to cancer and now he has been taken. I do know he was not in pain. That morning he told my father “go back to bed grandpa, I’m fine”. Little did we know that he would pass away in my fathers arms 20 min later. We still dont know the cause of death.
I was hoping to breed to Balou this season but I am not sure I will have the funds to buy the semen. I am trying to get it together because I need something to look foward to. I go up to see Nootka often to get my minds off things
I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words that are adequate. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Nootka, you know when I lost my son in 2001, my only child, I decided to get back into breeding to get over this horrendous loss. I can understand how you feel, it is so overwhelming, and doing something you love, with something to look forward to would be a good thing. Its very difficult not to get lost in the depths of your loss, BUT you have to go forward. Its never easy, it’s coming on 5 years for me, and yes it is easier, if that is any help to you. At least I don’t cry all the time!! like I did in the beginning. I had to go to his gravesite a lot at the beginning, planting flowers and such and always crying a river , but I believe it is part of the healing process. The love and understanding of your horses, and a new life to look forward to, will surely help. I think breeding again would really help~~~it has helped me and I’m still at it, expecting one foal this year any day now, and hoping to get a couple of mares bred soon. My heart is with yours sharing the pain and giving hope and courage. God Bless!!:sadsmile:
Bless your heart, I’m so sorry.
Please accept my sincerest condolences. Of course, words fail us, it’s a mother’s worst fear.Take some solace that he died peacefully surrounded by loving arms.
God Bless your family in this deeply sad time. You’re in my thoughts.
Oh, Nootka, I am sooo sorry for your loss! I will be keeping you in prayer and am very impressed with your strength in all of this. I also hope you find out what the illness was to give you more peace.
My sympathies to you…
I am so sorry to hear this. It is truly terrible. My most sincere prayers and thoughs are with the family at this time:(
Nootka, I think its a great idea. When my mother died, my horse was an hour away from me. During her whole last horrible two weeks, I didn’t get any relief by seeing my horse. Very soon afterwards, I moved her much closer to home. I finally had to change everything, move to FL, get a new job, to get myself together again.
I do want to also tell you one other thing that my friend did after they found out what his son died from. They set up a donation in his name for that specific disease. We also did that for my mother at the Dana Farber Cancer institute. It really helps to do something like that, and you would have a lot of support here at COTH. I did.
Nootka, I feel very strange by doing this (posting again) I want to make sure you are ok? I don’t know you… are you ok? I would think not.
I am so very sorry,I cannot imagine your heartache,please know that you are truly in my thoughts and prayers.
Sigh, I am a mother too, older kids, but still have the worry thing about them, and probably always will.
Might it be appropriate for fellow COTH BB’ers to start a fund to help buy the semen? I would be the first to send a check. A small bit from many may become a big boost when joined together. Just a thought, trying to be helpful.
To Nadanejsi: my sincere thoughts and wishes for peace.
Claudia
While I’m not Kristi, I did just see her yesterday (we went to visit my horse-in-training and her mare, Nootka). She seems to be doing ok. She’ll start back to work on Monday; she’s giving a couple of lessons today, so she’s getting out there! She told me some very sweet stories about Jamie yesterday :sadsmile: - I truly can’t even imagine the extent of her loss. Thank goodness for wonderful families and close friends!!! And she LOVED reading these posts on COTH!
So very, very sad
I lost my 18 yr old son in his sleep in 1992 from a virus that went into his heart, also with flu like symptoms. I can only tell you that it is the worst thing in the world to lose a child and for a long time you want to die too but with time things do get better and you learn to find other things to live for. I know I cannot bring you any wise words of comfort because there is nothing anyone can say or do that will bring you any relief from the relentless grief that you are going to feel for a long time. I am glad that your son, like mine did not know that they were as sick as they were and just went to sleep. I will pray for you and your son and you will be in my thoughts.
Erin, you have been an outstanding friend to Kristi.
Kristi, I am still thinking of you and wishing you strength to get through this. My thoughts are with you.
