I am so lucky to count Nancy Walker as a personal friend. Before I met her, I didn’t believe in any of that stuff. This is how we met:
In 2007, I was brand new to endurance and even by the end of the season, I had not met too many people as the man I was riding for was quite anti-social. The Mustang Memorial ride was my last of the season, taking place in mid-November. As often happens at rides, even if you start out alone, you often find another rider or group of them that is going the same pace as you, so you wind up with company even if you aren’t looking for it. That is how I happened to find myself sharing trail with Nancy that day.
We chatted about nothing of importance (anybody that knows me irl knows I could and would talk to a fence post) and the miles rolled by. After the first hold, we went back out on trail with nobody anywhere around us. As we chatted, I noticed she kept turning to look behind me (we were riding side by side). I assumed she was keeping an eye out for people coming up behind us.
After a few times of her doing that, she stopped talking mid-convo and said something along the lines of, “you are going to think I am crazy… but did you just lose a black cat?” The question was totally out of the blue and completely unrelated to anything we had talked about. And I DID have a black cat… one who had died about 3 weeks earlier.
I said that yes, I did have a black cat. Nothing more and certainly not that the cat was dead. She then explained she was an animal communicator and that my cat was desperate for her to give me a message from him. I am sure I must have made some kind of face at her, despite trying to remain poker-faced, because I didn’t believe in any of that crap. She laughed and said I didn’t have to believe her, but she would just tell me his message and be done with it so the cat would stop bothering her. She would even slow down so I didn’t have to ride with the crazy lady any more. I have to admit, that wasn’t too far off from the thought that was going through my head: just smile and listen to the crazy woman and then find an excuse to not ride with her any more.
After my tense laughter faded, Nancy went on to tell me, “he says the broom was ok. You didn’t have any other way and he knows you loved him.”
I could not have been more shocked - had my horse altered her pace at all, I would have fallen right off. All the hair on the back of my neck raised and I was immediately fighting back tears.
A total stranger had just spoken about my worst fear and something no other human being knew about.
My black cat, Legend, was FIV and herpes virus positive. He had been dealing with both diseases for just over 10 years when the FIV finally kicked in and he wasn’t able to fight back from the last respiratory infection and it turned into pneumonia. When I left for work in the morning, he seemed to be doing ok (he was on multiple meds which he took with grace, ate his breakfast, etc)… but I knew when I got home and he wasn’t waiting at the door that something was very wrong.
I honestly expected to find his body on the windowsill he loved to lay on so much, but he wasn’t there. He wasn’t any of the places he normally was. He didn’t answer me when I called him. I started frantically searching my 2-bedroom apartment and couldn’t find him anywhere. There was no way he could have gotten out as I lived alone (and he hated outside after starting life as a barn cat and never even went near the door).
I was on my third round of looking under all the furniture when I heard a weird sound as I came into the living room… and it was coming from behind the entertainment system. I leaned over the top in horror (it was angled against two walls) and there was Legend wedged into the corner behind it, gasping for air and blue. It was such a massive piece of furniture that I couldn’t possibly move it on my own.
Expecting him to gasp his last literally any second, I simply could not reach him, no matter what I did. In desperation, I called my boss (a vet) who lived not far away. He agreed to not only come help, but to bring some euth solution over.
While I was waiting, Legend’s breathing got worse and worse. I couldn’t bear the thought of him dying alone, wedged in the corner on my dusty power cords. I grabbed a broom, determined to fish him out. After some wiggling and prodding, I managed to get the broom under him and use it to lift him up the wall to a place I could get my hands on him.
He died in my arms, not a minute after I got him out. I was devastated - not only to lose my cat, but all I could think was his last memory was me torturing him with a broom…
NOBODY knew what happened but me. When my boss finally arrived, I just told him Legend had died on his own and thanked him for coming over. He didn’t stay long, knowing I just wanted to be alone to grieve. The broom was back in the closet before he even arrived. While I did tell friends and family that Legend had died, I sure as hell never mentioned the horrible last few minutes of his life.
So how could it be that this random woman could know to say that to me? “He says the broom was ok. You didn’t have any other way and he knows you loved him.” Nobody else knew it had happened but me and my cat.
I didn’t find an excuse to ride away from the ‘crazy lady’ and Nancy and I have since gone on to become very, very good friends. I don’t understand how she can do what she does and I am not even sure she knows exactly. But she is the real deal.
I can give countless other examples of her readings since then, including my horses pestering her over serious - Lam jumped out of the paddock and is in the yard - and serious-only-to-them - this hay (first cutting) is not as good as the ride hay (second cutting), tell her to put out the good hay - issues all on their own!