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Diesel had been having really great days. He was eating and playing and back to his normal self for the past week and a half. No episodes, no lethargy. The weather has been decent, so he has spent a lot of time outside annoying the neighbors dogs.
I called yesterday and made an appointment for next week to have another check up to evaluate how he was doing. He has been doing so well, that I didn’t even consider next week being that far out.
When I got home from work yesterday, he was great. Happy, running around, playing with his buddy. 2 hours later I went out and called them in for dinner. My boston terrier came running in, and Diesel was no where to be found. My heart sank. I did the walk around the backyard and found him. He was laying on his side like he never woke up from his nap in the shady spot under our big oak tree.
This morning I feel awful. I should have made a point to the vets office to have had him seen yesterday. I should have played ball with him, I should have brought the kids in the backyard yesterday so everyone could play. He shouldn’t have died alone in the backyard. I feel like a complete asshole. My poor boston is lost this morning. He has never been an only dog. My son is asking where Dee is. I hate this.[/QUOTE]
You are not an asshole. He was happy, he was doing well, he just simply went to sleep. My golden will be 14 next month if he makes it (he is sick, but doesn’t feel quite time yet), but I pray he closes his eyes and drifts off peacefully when it’s his time. Please know you gave your baby a wonderful life and I know I wouldn’t have thought anything reading how he was doing when you got home. Hugs to you.