Life and death hangs in the balance!!! 
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Nope, he never, ever paid for it.
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I kind of think he has a complex and needs to explain himself in order to get people to agree with him. Heās not making money off of a handful of people buying his self-published book and Iām pretty sure that is a pain point. I personally think this is the center or his personal complex. I kind of expect him to reply here soon with an alter.
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Itās noticeable that every aspect of his life tells the same tale: that he was wronged, abused, made fun of and diminished by others as if a professional victim.
Every single time, itās all about him being wronged by others.
I do not understand this.
Thereās no narrative of overcoming odds, triumphant, scratching a way to success.
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I know someone IRL who has been a major bully in barns and institutions her whole adult life. But her self conception is that everyone has always been out to get her and she has never had a fair break. She will vent and lament for hours to whoever she is currently friendly with.
Nothing to the extent of this book. But it is a known pattern.
I think itās possible for the sense of grievance and loss to be so deep that the person has to invent fantasy stories to express how they feel, because the feeling goes so deep that real life events donāt account for it. Also itās possible to keep doing things that reinforce how you think the world treats you.
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I couldnāt find this magnificent work of literature by searching on Amazon ā āBehind the Bitā returns up pages of random romancy young adult fiction and fantasy titles, some GIS texts, guides to producing 8-bit graphics ā¦
Adding āPeronaceā to the search term makes the results even more random: lots of probiotics, some power strips, and, perhaps more fittingly, some tools.
Iād have never found this magnum opus without it being directly linked here, which makes me tend to agree with the idea that the meatloaf maestro is hoping for this forum to send some sales or at least attention/visibility his way. And it also makes me see how much @J-Lu and @Paint_Party are taking one for the team by reading it. The synopsis-and-discussion posts communicate the laugh-worthy stuff while sparing the rest of us from the incessant headdesking that must be triggered by reading the book itself.
Iām not about to add this book to my Amazon cart, but Iād definitely contribute to a drinks fund for @J-Lu et al. to give our book reviewers something tastier to wash the delusion, misogyny, projection, and grammatical/spelling errors down with if they can bear to continue reading and posting about the book here.
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Try this:
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And 99.9% seem to be female. The only exception being the security guard.
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While a lot of it is funny, his level of misogyny is really disturbing. Heās slagging off ten-year-old girls. Jaysus, if you havenāt found a way to deal with it by now and are still filled with vitriol enough to write and vanity publish a book about it, um, youāre not only NOT a manly man, youāre not even really adulting well. And thatās assuming it even happened as he says. Really disturbing stuff re: women so far.
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Couldnāt agree more, itās rather disturbing.
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@J-Lu Wowā¦ thank you for slogging through the cornucopia of crazed crap filled rantings that this book seems to be. I appreciate your review.
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@J-Lu, does what youāve so far read change your opinion / view of Heather, who wrote the forward, as a āprofessional psychotherapistā?
i.e. do you think she actually read the book?
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Wow. The reaction of the security person sounds like there is a ring of truth to it, but not as far as persecuting Nick. He says he was in the barn (at her invitation) but the groom was saddling the horse and runs him out of the barn. lf they are getting ready for a class, I can imagine him being obnixious enough that even with a pass, they would want him to leave. Strangers canāt be lurking around. So he watches the class in the stands, they goes BACK to the barn to see the horse some more, no one around, heās actually touching/handling the horse and someone finds him, and if he balked āIām only petting himā or āI have a pass, I"m allowed!ā or some such, they may well have physically rushed him out of the barn to get him out of there. It sounds like he was coming into a restricted area, and not respecting boundaries. They may have been pissed they had to tell him to leave the first time, told the security guy to watch out for him, then heās back again. āshowing a gunā isnāt a thing so much as wearing one and its obvious, or if he did show it to him, who has to have a gun shown to them to get out of the barn? If he was claming the pass gave him rights to be in the barn, the security guy may well have taken it away from him before rushing him out. I think the scene says more about NIck not respecting property and boundaries than it does everyone just being mean to him.
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I agree. He certainly gets nasty when told āNoā. I bet he doesnāt take āneeds improvementā well either.
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The misogyny. This guy hates women, to the point of making up stories of hatred FROM women to justify it. Girls donāt do what he claims. I also canāt see him being sent to a jewish camp, and what camp accepts boys and girls todgether at that age, in the 1990s. This entirely wouldnāt even happen, and I canāt begin to fathom the crazy in his head.
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I am not saying I believe this camp story at all, but lots of over night camps had both boys and girls, even before the 1990s. I went to a 4H week long camp that was co-ed back in the 1970s.
So that part is not the part does not add to it being unbelievable to me.
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Yeah, I went to camp for a few summers in he late 80s that was co-ed. That part I could see, but the rest of it sounds insane.
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I just read that āforwardā
There is no way anyone but Nick wrote that, the errors in it give that away.
Speaking of forward, that at the camp horse show he canāt make the horse canter, just about says it all. The ābay and blackā description of another lesson horse says the rest.
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That recap was 
Is he an incel? He almost sounds like one.
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Where does the Maestro live these days? I guess that he was local to me at some point, from the instructors he claims.
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