many hugs to you.
a) you will always be the kid. No matter what, for better or worse.
B) some families just don’t work out.
I dearly love my parents, and I talk daily with my mom, but I dreaded calls from my dad. He always found something to pick on, I should be doing or not in his mind, but he would not consider my reasons for stalling. I just wish I could have had a ‘regular’ sesson on the phone with him now and then, talk about regular stuff, like, oh, a family friend/relative is having a baby. Nope. it was ‘I can’t talk with you, they are here with the baby.’ Yes, I got cut off in a long distance call in less than a minute!
Sadly my dad passed away last October. He was not a bad guy, just did not know how to articulate feelings.
However, other family is a pain. When certain things pop up, my husband is near tears at how his father put him behind a known liar cheater and thief, ‘Son, you don’t know what you are talking about’ when he damn well did. My FIL would not consider that until the day he died.
We pretty much do our own thing, although we live less than 30 minutes away from everybody. Keep it noncommittal.
I guess your family is used to running roughshot over you, so they do not respect your bounbdaries or house rules. ‘If you can’t control your dog, he has to stay home, or tied up outside’
Visit them for short times, have a cup of coffee and ‘sorry gotta run’
But ideally, get distance between you and them.
3 hour time difference works wonders.
I don’t know if it is you, but reading your pain, I doubt it.
Many hugs to you. dysfunctional families suck.