Firstly, thank you all so so much for your kind words and support! It does mean a lot to me as I don’t personally know any riders with back issues like mine, so I often feel very alone.
I’m sorry there are so many of you out there with major back injuries - and bad enough ones to either keep you from riding or changing the course of your riding career/goals
I have been asking my doctor for surgery to alleviate the pressure on my nerves - Two of my herniations are actually torn discs and they are bulging out and pressing on the nerves. Recent MRI (within the last 4 months) shows that there has been no improvement and in fact, the bulge is getting bigger. I am not a candidate for a fusion yet - however my doctor thinks injections will help, so I’m going to play the game and hopefully it gets me on the table faster. Although from what I’m seeing, it looks like many of you guys who have had surgery have also had to have additional surgeries later on down the road - or will have to at some point
My horse is a sweet boy, and very comfortable to sit…when I can get him over his back - otherwise it’s like sitting on a jackhammer. I can get him there myself, however he is sensitive to the aids and my body, and on my bad days, it’s definitely a struggle. I tend to lock up in the canter transition, which makes him tense and we usually get about 10 horrible canter strides before I can start to move with him and relax. I would LOVE to ride another horse, however most of the ones at my barn are too much horse for me - either in movement or are hot, spooky things and I’m too protective of my back to trust them enough to ride them.
Funny enough, my chiropractor is ALL ABOUT the riding! She has told me to get on the horse no matter what and just walk if I have to, as the motion is great for loosening my back, and the mental side of it is also beneficial in keeping me in a happy place. Finding doctors and PTs in the area that ride will be a little bit difficult though - I’m not from a horsey area to begin with and sadly, most docs are against me riding because of the possibility of a fall. My doc originally wanted me to quit altogether, and I reused. So the ‘compromise’ was to give up jumping so that I was a little less risk for a fall or a hard jerk to my back in the event of a refusal or a bad distance. I miss jumping - every single ride… but I’m thankful I can still ride so I guess I should count my blessings, but some days it’s really hard to, and it’s much easier to get lost in the things I now can’t do.
Sending everyone a huge hug - thanks for reading