Barn kitty passed

[GottaLuvIt]

My barn kitty came to live with us (me and her equine friends) eleven years ago. She was over a year old then but not sure. She came to me from a turkey farm as she was perceived to be “deaf” as she was not frightened by tractors and such. She was not deaf just a very special cat. She got attacked by one of my dogs and sewed up and recovered well. She had some other medical issues but with treatment she did well. This summer she was losing weight so I took her in to vet and she was found to have diabetes. I immediately changed food and she did well for a while but then got UTI’s and started to change more quickly. Upon her agreement she stayed in the house - in the walkout basement at night. Then she graduated to full time and I had to take her into the vet to be PTS last week.

I can’t tell you how upset I feel. I realize that there is a cycle of life and there is a time for everything. With all of the trauma that is happening to people all around the world I feel very selfish for feeling such great loss. I tend to adopt the “underdogs” that are older or sick or younger and have “issues” so I’ve had a lot of loss and although I have loved them all this is so hard! I do believe there are “soul” mates in life and for me it is the dog I adopted 36 years ago and lived to age 14 and my barn kitty and my current horse that has many terminal illnesses but still has a good quality of life and is still enjoying life. I hope that she is happy and pain free and that we will see each other again. I feel so empty. I will adopt another barn kitty but it is too soon. Writing this here as thought this audiance might understand. Thank you.

[Alex_and_Bodie_s_Mom]

@GottaLuvIt

With all of the trauma that is happening to people all around the world I feel very selfish for feeling such great loss.

Don’t feel selfish - you have a right to grieve your kitty. She was a part of your life, you loved her, and now she is gone. You did everything you could for her, including taking her pain away, and making it your own - the last gift we can give our animals.

I think in today’s world, it’s especially important to cherish those bonds, to take care of the underdogs, to remember what it is to be human.

Hugs and jingles to you. I am sure that when the time is right, the right kitty will find you. If not, let me know, I have several I can ship your way . . .

[2DogsFarm]

@GottaLuvIt

thought this audiance might understand. Thank you.

Of course we get it.
You did your best by your cat.
My little 8# Verminator lasted 10yrs, then had an apparent stroke.
I found her, unable to move, in the barn one morning & even a rush trip to the vet (in my stinky chore clothes) wasn’t enough.
At least I knew her end, the worst to me is when they disappear

[rubygirl1968]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Of course you miss your friend.

Jingles for comfort and peace for you. ((Hugs))

[dressagetraks]

Sorry for your loss. Of course we miss them.

[Rackonteur]

I understand, @GottaLuvIt, and I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet kitty. Sending hugs from me and purrs from my kitty, Velvet. She is my soulmate; I have had two other animal soulmates (and you know “anima” means soul), ages and ages ago, but Velvet and I have been together the longest, she just turned 18 and came to live with me when she was 6 months old.

I believe that your kitty is happy and pain free, just like we would want all our companions to be while they are here with us. We can’t always make that happen but we can give them release from pain and from any sorrow they might have experienced before coming to us. I also believe we get to see each other again. I know a heaven without BigEyes and Smokey and Laddie and Apple Jack and Red (to name a few!) would not be as nice as it would be with them.

Again, hugs and purrs.

[chestnutmarebeware]

I’m so sorry. Never feel guilty for grieving for an animal—it’s love and the world needs more of that, not less.

[cayuse]

I’m sorry for your loss. She sounded like a special one.

[swmorse]

So sorry

[GottaLuvIt]

@Alex_and_Bodie_s_Mom Thanks for your understanding. I find this loss so hard. I do cherish the opportunity I was given to have her in my life. I am going to try to let another kitty that needs a loving home and doesn’t want to be an inside kitty find me.

[GottaLuvIt]

@2DogsFarm. Glad you were there for your little 8# Verminator. Thank you!

[GottaLuvIt]

@rubygirl1968 Thank you - she was a good friend!

[GottaLuvIt]

@dressagetraks. Thank you.

[GottaLuvIt]

@Rackonteur. Thanks for understanding. Thank Velvet also! I’m so glad we can get so close to our four legged friends but so hard when they leave us.

[GottaLuvIt]

@chestnutmarebeware. Thanks! I also think this world needs more compassion and love. I know she is in better place.

@cayuse. Thanks! She was very special.

@swmorse. Thanks!

[BootsAndCoffee]

We never get to have them long enough.

She was very lucky to find you. Few take such care managing disease in house cats, let alone a barn cat (that got to become a house cat).

I hope the sadness is softened by good memories soon.

[Rackonteur]

I am sorry for the loss of your little Verminator.

[CHT]

Barn kitties are the best, and the loved ones like yours have the best lives in my opinion! Hunting AND cuddles! So sorry for the empty spot in your life. SO glad your kitty had you to take care of it.

[GottaLuvIt]

@BootsAndCoffee. Thank you. Yes, never long enough. She got attacked shortly after I got her and was able to get her healed. She had bladder stones and other urinary problems and saw many specialists but for the most part she was a happy healthy kitty. She was loved by almost everyone that got to meet her - she even won the hearts of those claiming to be “non-cat” people. I will miss her presence.

@CHT. Thank you. Barn kitties are the best and she knew she was loved. She was a great hunter and knew exactly where the invisible fence line was for the dogs and would lay down so they can see her but not touch. My current crew are good with cats and wouldn’t hurt her but she didn’t care for them and felt it was a great game! I was fortunate to have a good job and the desire to spend my money on my kids. I feel fortunate to have her come to live here.

[3PonyFarm]

So sorry about your kitty