I find myself having weird experiences when working on position with my trainer. She will say “find your core”, explain, demonstrate exactly what to do, and I really cannot feel much changing unless I go completely rigid and tense everywhere. Also, my right seatbone? Where is it? Most of the time I really don’t know. The left one is definitely there but I have to wiggle and push to find the right one.
I have had Type 1 diabetes since I was 11, so 37 years now. I do have some pelvic neuropathy that causes no pain, but definitely affects nerve function (I have “overactive bladder” from that… not incontinence, but just feeling like I need to “go” most of the time.) So that might be part of it. I also had a bad fall a few years back and know I am not anywhere near symmetric. My left shoulder is permanently squished (there is a metal plate holding my left clavicle together), and my left hip is “tricky.” I tend to roll the right shoulder in, too… maybe trying to balance with what the left is doing?
I did see a chiropractor for a while, but he got to a point where he said he really couldn’t do useful adjustments because the parts he needed to move (e.g. left shoulder) do not move. And I didn’t find it terribly helpful anyway.
I’ve never been a terribly athletic person, and “body unawareness” I suspect has been in my life for a long, long time. I became a re-rider in late 2006 and bought my horse in 2008 – a lifelong dream! Lost 35 pounds in the first 2 years, have gained maybe 10 pounds back recently (NO thanks to the Big M).
Any feedback? Ideas? Help???