No cancer (that I know of) but my mom kicked its ass 6 times. She worked through the first 4, including chemo and radiation treatments. I will offer my observations as a loved one, but also from the perspective of someone who saw a woman kick multiple cancers in the teeth and tell them to shove it where the sun don’t shine.
ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING.
My mom did look at statistics. At one point it was something like 1% of people survived. She decided someone had to be in the 1%. Why not her?
She also learned after the first cancer when she didn’t tell me until the night before her surgery that if cancer didn’t kill her, I might. You are stronger than you realize and so are some of the people closest to you. Think about who you can always count on to be cool headed under pressure, to make sound decisions, to step up to the plate and keep their wits about them without getting overly emotional. That is probably someone you can confide in without it turning in to a pity party. Not to say there won’t be grief, but it won’t be the babying I know my mom would not have tolerated and it seems you don’t want either.
DO make sure you have a health proxy and living will and someone designated to make decisions for you just in case. My mom ended up in ICU a few times with infections and was back out after her vacation at “Club Med”. We learned that she should suspend her health care directive while in ICU though after a horrible experience with a very bad nurse. So, you should have someone you trust designated just in case.
Also, regarding your job you can be protected two ways… FMLA will let you take up to 12 weeks off in a one year period. The days don’t have to be consecutive. You also could possibly be eligible for reasonable accommodation under the ADA if you disclose you condition to your employer. So, you shouldn’t lose your job. This is America and we have things in place to protect people. At least we’re suppose to
Oh, and about the hair. My mom was VERY empowered by shaving her head. She got tired of trying to hide it, manage it, etc. she had me bring down the horse clippers and shave her. I gave her a Mohawk first. She said it gave her control and it wasnt depressing anymore to see her hair on the pillow or in the tub drain. She did have a wig for dressy occasions but she had a good scarf and hat collection for going around town, drs, out with friends, etc. around the house she went bald headed or wore a knit cap to stay warm. Personally, I think bald is beautiful and the ultimate middle finger to cancer.
I hope you are doing as well as can be expected.