When I was 22, I took a head-first fall off a horse while riding cross country at a recognized horse trial. It resulted in a brain injury that bordered on the region between mild and moderate (depending on the diagnostic criteria you choose to use). It was my seventh measurable concussion, in addition to innumerable sub-concussive hits that sustained throughout my rough-and-tumble childhood and riding career.
I am now 26. In the past four years, I have gone through countless therapy sessions (speech, physical, occupational, music, hippotherapy, you name it, I did it) and doctors’ visits. I have reached my “plateau” of recovery - I am only about 75% of where I was before the accident, but this is as good as it’s going to get. I have significant memory issues, problems with language, cognition, processing speed, problem solving, visuospatial processing, hemiparesis, self-expression, recognizing emotions in others, empathy…I could go on and on and on. Today, I live with fair degree of certainty that I will at some point develop the symptoms of Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (the same disease that has caused many former NFL players to take their own lives) or Alzheimer’s. Like the previous poster, that one fall changed my life.
The past four years have also been devastating to my riding career. Before my accident, I was working toward my B rating in Pony Club, riding three to four horses per day, and in the process of applying to vet school. That all changed with the fall. I have spent the majority of the last four years out of the saddle - the first two years was due to the direct effects of the accident. The second two years was due to our entire disposable income as newlyweds (I was married two years ago to the most amazing man who understands all my problems) going toward ongoing medical expenses. In fact, it is only within the last four weeks that I have begun seriously riding again and working toward my old ideal. Virtually every symptom of my brain injury has an effect on my ability to ride.
BUT…I still ride. I still jump. Heck, I even jump cross country. Why? Because during the last four years of my life, there has been a giant void in my life that I just could not fill. The happiness and completeness that I have felt over the last four weeks can only be compared to my first weeks as a starry-eyed June bride. I’m much more cautious now than I was as a single 22-year-old. I know that my husband would be TICKED if I ever fell off again (he was quite perturbed last week when a mare kicked me and cracked my iliac crest and bruised my kidney), so I am definitely more careful, not just for my sake but for his as well. We are also trying to conceive right now, so that also urges me to use more caution.
Can anyone tell you to stop riding? No. Like a previous poster said, there is no Concussion Gestapo going around and pulling people off their horses after some magical number of concussions. I had a lot of doctors try to tell me the same thing they told you. They used every scare tactic in the book, but I always knew that eventually I would have to come back to it. That being said, it is a VERY personal decision that has to be made. You have to weigh the cost and benefits, or in this case, the potential costs and benefits. I know that one more even not-so-bad fall could leave me a vegetable, and my husband a potential single father. But on the other hand, I’ve seen what it’s like to go four years without riding, without horse hair and arena sand running through my veins. It’s not fun. It’s downright depressing. It makes me feel like a huge part of my life, my soul, is missing. So for me, the cost of NOT riding and jumping is much greater than the actual and potential cost of not riding and jumping.
So, my advice is to make that decision for yourself, then move on with your life and don’t look back. Always be ready to justify your decisions to others (because they will question you), but don’t ever look back or second-guess yourself. You know what’s right for you and your life.
It sounds like you are doing everything right - always wear your helmet, but do be aware that, as the previous poster said, they will not prevent concussions. They will just prevent you from becoming a vegetable. Ride horses that are well within your comfort level and invest in some solid training. The cost of 4 or 5 lessons is about the same as a good-quality helmet and could do just as much to prevent a catastrophe.
Sorry for the novel; this is obviously something about which I have quite strong feelings.