So last time I posted here I was doing great. Symptom free. Riding, jumping, giving lessons, and even had a couple training horses again. Things have went down hill fast this Jan. I have not ridden at all, even on the days it is warm enough here, and have been in and out of the hospital for tests. Have no energy, can’t seem to stay awake, and have had test after test done to find out where the internal bleeding is coming from. So far all the tests say I am healthy (hey ya, you are healthy you just have blood coming out both ends!)
So here is the question: I have a very talented horse that I own with another woman. We purchased him as a sales horse, but we both agreed to let me take him as far as I like for eventing. He has true true Advanced potential. Better mover then most WBs, has schooled Prelim without batting an eye, has done a little fox hunting, and thinks a 4ft jump is something to laugh at as it takes him no effort at all and he jumps with his knees to his eye balls nice and square and round every time. He does need work as he has been out of work for awhile.
So I have this beyond talented horse sitting here. He is now 9. It is killing me to think he might miss another show season if I am not healthy enough to show him. Even if I am healthy enough to ride on the flat will I be strong enough to ride him XC?
So do I try to find someone to take him on to sell him?
Do I hope they figure out why I haven’t been able to get off the couch for 2 weeks and show him myself?
There is no money to send him out to someone. My medical bills are thru the roof. I stress my self out over every cost for my medical things, then feel guilty that I have some money set away for a small show season (and by small I mean SMALL) that my husband won’t even consider letting me use for anything other then the horses.
I have a coming 2yr that I don’t feel guilty about him sitting. Because he is 2. Part of me says find someone to take the TB on to show and sell, as it is unfair to the horse to sit, and maybe by the time my 2yr is ready to be started I will be 100%. And if I am healthy this summer I can always go get another track brat.
The other part of me says, stick it out. They will fix you. But it has been 5 years. 5 years of on and off illness. 5 years of going : Is this the year I am going to compete or is this the year that I will never ride again and become more and more ill?
What would you guys do?