OK, I am just going to post this and see if I get any positive feedback.
I don’t know if I have a disability or not. I have no health insurance, so I can’t go to a doctor to be evaluated.
I used to ride a wonderful horse, for about 5 years, but he is now in a lesson program and I no longer get to ride him. I have some friends who offer me rides on their horses, but their horses are very spirited and I don’t feel brave or bold enough to ride any of them.
I don’t make enough money to buy a horse, lease a horse, or take lessons on a lesson horse. I can barely afford gas in the car to drive out to friends’ barns once a week to hang out with them and groom their horses (the only horse activity I get to do these days). Once summer comes I won’t be able to do that anymore, because I don’t make enough money to replace the AC compressor in my car and driving in 90+ degree temps with high humidity is not only uncomfortable, it is dangerous.
So–I am not able to see pay for a doctor. I am not able to get Medicaid, because (thank God) I’m too healthy.
I am not able to pay for a horse or lessons.
Being not able to do certain things is being disabled in that context.
I am not complaining. I have good health and friends with horses I can visit.
But I am not able to do things that I not only love but that I need in order to feel well and enjoy life.
I sometimes wonder if there is anyone else out there as disabled financially as I am, and what they do about it.