Mother’s Day Oops- How much damage did I do?
Whiney vent:
One of the 15 Mother’s Day guests was my 3yo cousin. He bashed his finger in a door and was shakily coming up the two flights of stairs by himself, crying for his mom. Without thinking I leaned down the last three steps from the top of the landing –and picked him up. My back instantly screamed at me. :eek: Oh My God what have I done?!! The left side of my back from hip to the bottom of my shoulder blade is wrecked. It feels muscular.
I didn’t get home until late but once home I iced and took two Tylenol. I do not take prescription pain relievers or muscle relaxers as I’m scared of addiction and they make me lightheaded or nauseous or both. Last night, pain was 9 out of 10. This morning it’s a 7/8. Because I’ve had prolo and am undergoing disc regeneration which contains prolo, I don’t take anti-inflammatories. (I know icing is a No-No if inflammation is encouraged, but I had to do something to keep me from jumping off my balcony in desperation!)
I get confused about when you should ice and when you should use heat . One doctor says one thing, another says another thing, the PT says another thing.
Seeing my doctor Thursday morning. I’m just so :mad: at myself. After reading threads like the one about chronic pain and insomnia, I think I’ll ask my doctor if I can be evaluated for depression. I’m bummed all the time, have NO energy, avoid some social situations because I’m embarrassed or fear pain, I’m embarrassed yet hopeless about the weight gain brought on by complete lack of activity, can’t sleep through the night, have no interest in my old hobbies (I ride and do obedience and hiking with my pup. Riding is forbidden and bending down to my low-rider dog over and over again is crippling.)
My biggest fear is ruining the couple thousands of dollars and nearly a year of No Riding. I want to sleep, and hike, and laugh and RIDE.
I should be able to lift a crying kid. And should be able to drive a car longer than 20mins without pain. And should be able to bend down and leash the dog, or lift groceries from the car, or paint my toenails, or walk a XC course without pain, and hey I should be able to ride. That’s my goal!
I’m kicking myself at my reflexive, thoughtless action and dreading the next week/next doctor appt/next disc regeneration. Just venting to those going through similar things.