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I too went through many saddle before I found one that would fit my back! It would be silly to say anywhere else but this thread undersands “fitting my back” for a saddle
Lovethose - YES, I fear of falling off and hurting myself more - or permanetly! I only ride my horse now. I used to hop of anyone’s horse crazy - lazy or what have you. These days I ride only my noble steed (who is no plug) but he is predictable.
Back problems scare the life out of you. I could not imagine not riding…[/QUOTE]
Boy, you know, there was a time when not riding was something I couldn’t possibly imagine being a reality in my life either. But it sure hit hard when it did. Although as yet undiagnosed throughout the late 70’s-80’s, the doctors still said I should likely give up riding. When I was finally diagnosed they were adamant about it. At that point a disc, that has now degenerated almost completely, (causes much less pain) was just ruling my life. The pain was so intense I could not gather my thoughts or think. I could not concentrate enough to even read. It got to the point where I did stop, no longer did I argue the case, I could barely stand to continue living for the excruciating pain. But the decision to quit was still just devastating, it was so very important to me.
My horses and other animals too, have always been my entire life. It really felt like I had a big hole in life, not riding, that’s for sure. I am sure glad I have now remedied it. They tell me that I will hasten the yrs I have left where I’ll be able to walk because of it. But there is no way I’d rather spend them. At least now, on days where I CAN ride, I have a big smile on my face that lasts all day long, even if I can only stand to ride for a half hour some days or less even sometimes. Other times I manage a couple hours and then Im just ecstatic.
But yup, to IMAGINE not riding, was an impossibility. When it became a reality, it was completely devastating. But when I decided to do what I thought best for ME, that feeling is indescribable. So great it even helps in diminishing the unsurmountable despair of having stopped riding. And that burdensome feeling still resides on my shoulder, waiting it’s chance to return.
I wished I would have had a reliable noble steed as you say, to return to. I had an unflappable Canadian X mare though just begging to be trained and ridden, she was what I had to work with, and we are doing fine. I just love that girl so much, just as I did her mom, and her mom. We’re a team for sure.
I couldn’t be happier with my decision to return to riding. My doctor quit seeing me but Ive found another easily enough. He said he had a waiting list of ppl who wanted to take and follow his advice and it wasn’t fair to them for him to continue seeing patients who did not wish to. I find this to be very wrong, but lots of things are, you learn to deal. I wish you much luck, it isn’t fun is it? I think the best we can do is to just keep fighting no matter what, and hope for the best. What else can we do? We can’t give up.