Thanks @Scribbler, I appreciate you are trying to help, but honestly, it has been four years of trying to help her fear issues and I have enlisted vets, trainers and a vet behavourist. Best guess is PTSD. An interesting (but likely not important fact) is that her heart rate goes up with people near by, but goes down when I get on - riding seems to calm her.
I just need to catch her so I can put a break away halter on for now, and get her back into a routine.
She always comes to me, usually with a soft nicker. She will follow me around. She just is currently terrified of the lead rope and the halter…I have no idea why. Although, even though she will follow me, she will gnash her teeth and wrinkle her eyes as she does it.
@BrendaJane I think the break in her routine combine some new horses coming all led to her breakdown…and my ear twitching her for the vet probably triggered some distrust. But I need to catch her.
I tried with a western split rein, and she didn’t seem to recognize it as a lead rope, so did let me touch her with it, but panicked when I tried to put it over her neck…span, went to kick, and slipped on the wet snow…poor kid. Came back for scratches, but was more alert. Made an odd grunting sound when the rein got close. She seems to be in an internal struggle. Maybe I gave her a shock last time I caught her? Who knows.
Going to try chlorpromazine…hopefully she eats it in beet pulp.