I have been riding a long time (20+ years) and, in the not-too-distant past, I was competent up to 1.10m. I used to feel very solid.
Fast forward to now. I have a 5 year old horse who’s on the green side. He’s a good boy, but struggles with straightness and adjustability. He’s behind my leg a lot. My trainer can jump him around just fine, but it’s…not great with me. He always jumps – bless his heart – but the straightness and adjustability issues, combined with adult amateur pilot, lead to some very interesting, and sometimes frightening, distances.
Meanwhile, I only ride 3x/week and I only jump 1x/week. I feel disgusting in the air. My leg is unstable, which makes my whole body unstable. I’m coming up too early, my heel is not staying down, and my release isn’t enough. It is SO frustrating. And this is over tiny jumps. We are talking 2’-2’3".
This is starting to feel like a recipe for disaster. I do not want to create a crash that scares my horse. WWYD? I wish I could just ride more, but with my family/job obligations, that’s not an option.