Contact the hunt to see if someone has an older horse that needs exercise. IMO, it’s insanity to take a green rider out on an inexperienced horse in the hunt field! See if you can “rent” a Steady Eddy for the season, or even for this summer. Chances are the owners would be delighted to see a semi-retired hunter back out in the field getting exercise, and the horse would be thrilled to have a job again.
I was very fortunate to get a seasoned field hunter. Buddy was terribly lame, and it took me 3 years to get him sound, but he is back hunting and loving life. There are days when his arthritis flares up, and he’s a bit slower, and also he’s a bit more maintenance to keep fit and sound. However, he gave me the precious gift of being able to hunt, and I’ll put up with some “off” days in exchange for safety and peace of mind. And if I ride him correctly, hunting is the BEST thing for his arthritis management!
As far as cantering in open spaces, I understand your fear. Right after I started riding, another one of my horses tripped and fell at a canter, and I had some nasty injuries. It took me almost a year to feel comfortable cantering again, in an arena OR out in the open. Your best bet is to get a suitable horse that can be rated and controlled easily, and go out on group trail rides with understanding people. Do short canter sets to build your confidence. Don’t be afraid to tell people your fears; don’t be afraid to let them know what it is you want to do.
I found that there are a lot of people out there that want to go slow on trail rides, for one reason or another. When I first started coming back after my accident, I found a gal who gets OTTB and retrains them for riding horses. She didn’t want to go fast; she wanted a nice, quiet, relaxing ride for the horse. So we were a good match, and I gained confidence along with her green horses.
Foxhunters are such giving people, and are so willing to help you if you ask. Everyone has to start someplace, and if you are honest and open about your desires AND fear, you will find someone to help you.
I never thought that I would be foxhunting. Never thought I’d have the courage to do it. Having the right horse is crucial, especially for your first season! Good luck.