Hi everyone. Long time lurker here but I am hoping to find that my situation is not a unique one.
I own a 27 year old paint horse named Lakota, and he and I have been together since I was 14 and he was 11. We’ve done almost everything together and he has been my solid rock through various life events as I’ve grown up.
In 2015 I moved him closer to home to a better barn situation and he had been here ever since. We have some of the best care I’ve seen personal and he is the happiest I’ve ever seen him. I’m so thankful that I can provide a life like this for him.
Lakota was diagnosed with ringbone in both front legs approximately two years ago and we started him on Equioxx. He has corrective shoeing as well, occasional bodywork sessions and is on SmartPaks with the full range of joint health supplements. I am trying to hold off on injections until they are absolutely needed, as I am so concerned that I may only be able to do a year’s worth and then not be able to afford it again after that. I don’t think it’s fair to him to start something if I can’t reasonably keep up with it for the next few years.
Equioxx worked for about a year and then we were back to square one. Since then he has been on 1 gram of bute split between breakfast and dinner daily and we’ve had a wonderful year together doing training level Dressage lessons. We’ve all watched him closely for any GI symptoms or anything adverse and he has been a happy, healthy guy.
He came up lame again recently and I had my vet out this weekend. The ringbone has progressed considerably and he is gimpy at a trot but still enjoys bucking and playing outside and in the arena. Vet gave me a range of suggestions to consider, and obviously some were injections. As I said previously, I am concerned about the long term cost of injections draining what little savings I have to go towards a house down payment someday for my fiance and I, although we have agreed to dig into it if Lakota ever needed something in a true emergency; any other routine care has to come from our paychecks.
I reached out to a friend to ask about her experience with OsteoMax and to ask if she felt it was worth the investment as cost was a concern for me for the long term. She came at me swinging and wanted to know why cost was even a concern for me because I should “be willing to do anything for Lakota after all he has done for me over the years” and she had to remind me that she has “skipped meals to ensure her horses had everything they could possibly need” and basically made it sound like I had told her that I was stopping all of his care and shipping him over the border and not just trying to be smart financially while still caring for him. She also commented on the fact that I’m getting married in a few months and remarked that my husband to be and I will have to make some sacrifices for Lakota for probably the next several years. And yes, I agree that we will need to do this, but to me that does not mean going into more debt or ruining what savings we have unless it’s an emergency.
I have been grappling with guilt ever since this conversation and I can’t understand why she had no concept of my point of view. To me it is totally reasonable to have financial limits for horse care and for me, knowing that he will need other forms of care for more frequent dental work, shoeing, regular vet visits, etc, I want to ensure I can reasonably cover all of those routine things before adding something more expensive in like injections to my list. I’m willing to consider it but i don’t think I can do it right away. Most of my paycheck each month goes to Lakota and I am okay with that. I signed up to care for him and I’m doing that, but it now feels like it’s not enough and that it won’t be enough until my resources are out.
I feel like I’ve worked hard to make sure my old guy has a good life and I don’t see how wanting to save for a home someday alongside caring for him and managing everything else in my life is something I should be ashamed of. I guess I’m just hoping for some assurance that this is normal and that other people have limits too for what they are willing to do for their horses even though they love them. I’m worried that deep down this makes me a bad person.