Hey Nootka, I just came over to this thread. I am so sorry, I don’t know what to say. Think of moving to Florida as a way to renew your life. I can’t imagine the conflicting emotions that you are feeling. I just feel for you so much. Hopefully one day soon we will hook up. :sadsmile:
oh Nootka… I am so deeply sorry 
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I am very sorry for your loss. My younger brother passed a way in 2000. Holidays are still hard, as are his birthday which is right after Christmas.
My prayers are with you this holiday season. 
I am so very very sorry to hear of such a loss. Any child is precious, every life can possibly change our world.
I have no words, and can only hope that there is some tiny comfort in the knowledge that people really do care, that if it were possible to parcel out the grief, we would stand shoulder to shoulder, and each take our portion.
canyonoak that is soo sweet of you to say. It funny the other poster that lost her daughter I really felt that way also. I wish I could have taken all of her pain so she would never feel the way that I do.
Well, it is offically his birthday at 11:47 tonight. I am doing ok considering… Just never thought I would be 25 and outlive my would be 7yr old son. Uhhhhh, gave Nootka a bath and took some pictures of her and the horse I am boarding. If you want to see I can post them or you can see them on the “how are the 3yr olds…” thread. I know I am going to fall apart when I go home tonight. Not looking forward to that.
Happy Birthday Jamie Dan Stillwagon… Love you:cry:
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Happy Birthday Jamie. I thought the stars were twinkling a little birghter tonight. Now I know why. The angels put stars on his cake.
Thinking of you tonight Nootka.
There are no words to say…
Please know that you are in my prayers, and my thoughts.
Condolences and jingles from Canada.
I’m sorry, Nootka. Take care of yourself, ok?
I am soooo sorry! I lost my brother 20 years ago, and the holidays and birthdays are still tough. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
I can’t imagine the pain. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
Susan
Happy Birthday to Jamie
Nootka, my thoughts are with you.
As a mother, my heart breaks for you–especially at this time of year with his birthday and the holidays. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Below is a poem that I love and read often when dealing with my personal losses become a little too much to bear…
Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room,
I am I and you are you, Whatever we were to each other, that we are still,
Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way that you always used,
Put no difference into your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow,
laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together,
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me,
let my name be ever the household word that it always was,
Let it be spoken without effort, without the ghost of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant, it is the same as it ever was,
There is absolutely unbroken continuity.
What is this death but a negligible accident?
Why should i be out of mind because i am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near,
just around the corner, All is well.
Peace to you,
Sara
Oh Nootka, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know there must be better words to tell you how sorry I am, but I cannot find them right now.
Know that all of us on COTH are praying for you. Look after yourself and keep your friends and family close.
Hugs and prayers are coming your way from Ontario.
Jennifer
Nookta
I have a 4 year old and couldn’t even imagine what you are going through…hugs
The holidays are supposed to be bright and cheery …
You are in our prayers and thoughts…try and have some happy holidays with the memories…
Prayers and jingles from another mother of small children. I cannot imagine your pain.
Thinking of you tonight.
Nothing can be worse than losing a child.
Thank you for thinking of me everyone. I really do love all of you for the kind words. It has helped me more than you could imagine:D
