Hey all,
Not the first post I’ve written about this horse, but a not-so-new issue that is showing up yet again and this time in an, arguably, more dangerous scenario.
My horse had 7 months off of jumping to recoup from an unfortunately human-made injury. We started riding her again in March (primarily dressage) and she has been back to jumping since June. Pre-injury a pain symptom was bearing down on the bit and tanking off with the rider, unable to slow down. The answer at the time was a twisted corkscrew. She jumps 2 ft x-rails and verticals and we have not been able to progress with trainer because of this issue.
All pain issues have been taken care of: we got a custom fitted and flocked saddle from a highly reputable fitter/dealer and it’s due for a check at the end of the month, and a high-end fleece pad the saddle was fitted to. She is on an ulcer-treatment plan at the moment and we are a week in (we are on it for 3 months as it is a ranitidine/powdered omeprazole regiment which does not work as effectively or as quickly as gastroguard but is cheaper and more budget friendly), as she was showing symptoms so this is taken care of and the symptoms are slowly dissipating (girthiness, balkiness, tenderness around stomach, minor colics).
When we jump, she is either a) really excited or b) terrified and wanting to get it over with. With jumps or exercises that she’s never done before in areas of the ring that are spooky her rushing is anxiety-induced. On the side of the ring that is safe she will come back immediately to me and the rushing seems to be a balance issue/perhaps excitement-induced. It’s very interesting to see how she jumps different fences at different sides of the area, as they are all the same height and x rails since we can’t graduate because of this problem.
I find that because her jumping style is inconsistent I am tense. If I feel her start to charge underneath me my first instinct is to get tight and HOLD her, sitting really deep in the saddle to try and contain her. This doesn’t work and what happens is she gets even FASTER and explodes over these fences, and on the other side she runs with her nose between her knees pulling, pulling, PULLING, me down onto her neck while she runs blindly around the ring with no power steering, no breaks, and since i am being pulled out of my saddle i cannot sit deep, or frankly sit at all because it’s my 160 lbs vs her 1000. This leaves me balancing off my stirrups. A stop or a buck could send me flying because I am holding on by a thread and it’s due to her compassion that I am not tossed off. I’ve started running her into fences in my desperation to get her to stop. It is very unsettling and scares me because I have no control and I am at her mercy. It makes it hard to jump anything or progress through my training, because we are constantly going backwards and backwards and backwards to places where she will not do this.
This horse and i used to jump 3’ oxer and vertical courses . Now we can’t even make it over a 2ft x rail without me bursting into tears of frustration and fear and having to go BACK to polework every. single. lesson.
She is an OTTB with very few “back to the track” moments. Holding with both reins, as I often do, does trigger this grab-the-bit-and-run, but pulling with my outside rein is so hard to do because that doesn’t work as quickly as I would hope and what ends up happening is the two of us get in a huge pulling match and we both become upset.
I lost a lot of trust in her before her 7 month layup. She was in pain and reacted as such, but I took some very, very bad falls from her bronco bucks which left me questioning her reliability. I love this horse more than my own life and she is my partner and best friend, but in “work” it is hard to give her the benefit of the doubt and I think she senses this, too.
Please help. I want us to get back to competing and doing what I consider the “big jumps.” She does not refuse but she just gets stronger and stronger and stronger and will not slow down no matter what I do. She also goes from a super quick trot into a slow canter which builds and builds and builds into a hand gallop on the flat, me pulling the entire time and it only makes her move faster.
I know this is not the right way to ride but my survival instincts are kicking in during these moments and I go back to 6 year old me, all hands and no leg or seat.
She is in a D-Ring, stainless steel ovation lozenge bit for flat and jumping. I do not know if I need a stronger bit because she’s reluctant to seek contact with any bit but something that’s friendly and inviting, but the drawback is these bits do not have enough bite to get her to stop when I really need her to. I have no control and no finesse and she is not listening to my aids AT ALL.
I do have a trainer, and I ride with her twice a week. I flat 5 days a week and she is jumped twice a week. She also is professionally schooled at least once a week.
Thank you for reading and I appreciate your feedback. I will answer questions as they come up.