Wow, so this thread got resureccted while I was away!
Spring term has been INSANELY busy! But I’m doing very well.
I really, really agree with poltroon, eye in the sky, and kdow - the attitude of “malingerers” is extraordinarily frustrating, only compounded by drug-seeking individuals or those very few, rare people who consciously and willfully malinger for some sort of gain.
Pain is suck a fickle thing. Is there an identifiable cause? Is it misfiring neurons? Are those neurons sending afferent or efferent signals? From where does the pain originate? How do we treat it?
I think I’ve finally found my answer over the last six weeks.
Really, I just decided that I was going to get on with my life. I wasn’t going to let it control me anymore. It didn’t make the pain go away, but it sure made it a lot easier to deal with.
I think the lamictal I am on for my seizures is helping as well, because things just seem to be a lot quieter lately - not a lot of this firing here and that firing there for no reason…now my pain is localized to specific areas that are located around the main problems from my fall.
I decided not to go back to the pain management dr who lacked a bedside manner - I knew that I would not be able to work with him no matter how helpful his suggestions might have been, although I don’t think that they really were helpful in the first place.
I did go see one of my other doctors at OHSU though - the one I first saw for my head injury back when we thought we were only dealing with a concussion. He knows me better and 100% understands the eventer AND triathlete personalities and how they feed off each other and get the hybrid effect when they’re in the same person. We talked about how I’m one of the lucky ones who will be managing chronic pain for a very, very long time, but that it is going to be manageable. Not cured, but manageable. He knows the doctors who work at the spine center (where dr charm works) and he said “you’re not that kind of patient.” I knew exactly what he meant 
He is an osteopath, so his plan focused on manual therapy and myofascial release with a whole slew of exercises to do and combine with my PT. He referred me to another “old school” osteopath closer to where I live. He highly recommends her and sends his own kids to her, so I’m pretty excited for my first appointment next week, even though I know it will be hell working through all the adhesions and tension and misalignments and everything else.
But as far as the rest of my life goes, things are going quite well, really. I’m doing well in my classes at school, my research is wrapping up, I’m getting ready to take the MCAT in July, med school applications open in May, I have an internship with a pediatrician, I am riding my mare regularly getting ready for a dressage show next month, I’m running and swimming and biking to get ready for triathlon season next month, and I even occasionally have time to do fun things with my friends!
Physically I am doing really well. I still get pain after I do a lot - after a long run or ride - but I can do pretty much whatever I want as long as I’m willing to pay the price the next day. But through PT and a system of stretching and icing and foam rolling, I can manage pretty darn well. I think I’m finally ready to start jumping again (I have my eyes on a few horse trials this summer) and my PT is just about ready to discharge me to the personal trainer she works with.
Another neuro appointment is coming up - we’ll adjust medication as necessary and talk about adding an antidepressant/axiolytic to take the edge off and a stimulant for my terrible concentration problems (yes, I should be studying for my microbiology midterm right now)
I have an amazing GP, my concussion/sports medicine dr at OHSU is awesome, my PT has been my go-to person for the last six months, a purportedly fantastic osteopath to start working with, and my neuro is probably the single greatest physician I have ever met. It’s all finally come together.
And you know, I’m really thinking about going into neurology…