I wanted to update this and ask for further advice. I really appreciate all of the replies. In full disclosure, this is my horse. I am feeling embarrassed about this because I have already put down one young horse (although I do not believe that was at all the wrong decision, but it sure feels shitty to be in the same place).
The vet came out for a lameness recheck and within two minutes of mounting, the horse suddenly reared, and I fell. Up until now, this horse has been extremely easy to handle (ridden bareback, ridden around construction, etc), albeit a little balky and sour, and this seems like a pain reaction, but it scared the crap out of me. I have been on some hairy rides before, but rearing is one thing I will not do.
The vet wanted to block the horse, as it originally flexed positive on both upper and lower joints (although only fetlock rads were abnormal). Horse blocked to fetlocks. The vet’s best recommendation is prostride, and she believes the horse has a decent prognosis. (not surgery- osteochondrosis is like OCD without the flaps/fragments, so there’s nothing to remove. It’s a similar developmental disease)
My problem? Now I am scared and I know I will not get on this horse again. I have a full-time job, and the risk isn’t worth it to me. The vet didn’t bring up euthanasia as an option, and I feel like a horrible person for considering it.
But I feel backed into a corner. I am going through a divorce, and I can’t afford board forever. I won’t get back on this horse, which means paying a trainer. I couldn’t not disclose the rear to a future owner, so I am not sure how I would ever sell this horse, even if the Prostride did work.
I am thinking about contacting TB rescues, who with their experience and reach may have a shot or just biting the bullet, doing the prostride, and then sending her to a trainer. I really feel stuck and overwhelmed. I am really trying to do the “right thing” here, but having already drained my bank account on another young horse, it’s really hard to do it again, especially when it’s a project I don’t have an emotional connection with.
Hit me with the truth.