I had posted in another section about this, but this section seems to be better suited for my questions.
I was looking to connect with others that are dealing with bipolar, mood disorders, anxiety, depression, etc. Just having someone to bounce some ideas or thoughts off of from time to time would be a great help.
I am bi-polar, and everyday things can get pretty difficult at times. Some days are a struggle to get out of bed, to go to work, to take care of the horses. This morning was pretty rough, I could barely get myself out of bed (over an hour later then planned). I arrived at work 30 minutes late and had to ask for help in getting the barn clean (i work on a horse farm) because I was feeling so terrible. I knew if one thing went wrong I’d fall to pieces. I got done quickly and left before the “meltdown.” Thankfully the temperature has been cooler the last couple days so i have been leaving the horses out. I needed the break from cleaning my own stalls and bringing horses in and out. When I’m in that mood it’s best I don’t do too much with the horses, as I lose my temper easily so I do the minimum on those days. It’s just an upsetting process sometimes. It’s difficult to stay motivated. I feel like I never progress because I ride everyday for a week, and then won’t ride for weeks. I schedule lessons and cancel last minute.