There is a back story further down for those that want to read it, but for those that want to get to the point…
I am having trouble sitting the trot after many years out of the saddle. I feel like maybe my stirrups are to long, or is this just the wrong saddle for me?
Here is the back story…
I grew up riding… not showing, just putting around. I had some english lessons as a teen but nothing ‘real’ for many many years(I am 47 now).
I bought a filly in 1996 and raised/trained her myself. She was great on the trails and I was very happy with her. I bred her and she foaled a colt in 2000.
I raised him up and did all of his ground work (he is gelded btw). I had back surgery (spinal fusion w/hardware) and was gaining weight. I got on him a dozen times or so, but he was/is very lazy and I started having mild panic episodes about ‘what if’. (he bucked, he bolted, he tripped) I took him to a local trainer at 5 and had 30 days of riding put on him. No formal discipline, just walk, trot, lope, whoa and turning.
Life got in the way for a while. I had bred the mare again in 2002, the filly had colic surgery at 1 yr and died from EEE at 2 and I ‘separated’ from the horses for a while. They got good care but I did not spend hours at the barn anymore. Depression/anxiety issues were getting worse.
In 2012 I took the gelding back to the trainer for a 30 day tune up. I was wanting to get back to riding again. I was up to 340 lbs and was being treated for severe depression. The more I rode the more often I had panic attacks on the horse. I walked mostly with just the occasional trot. No loping as I was ‘afraid’ he would buck.
In Feb of 2014 I went into the hospital for gastric bypass surgery, expecting to be out in 3 days. Things went horribly wrong. I died once, was in a coma for 12 days. I finally got out of the hospital Aug 1, only to be back in a week later, out 5 days after that… off to Emory in Atlanta for surgery on Sept 4 and a 3 week stay. Back to Emory In Nov for another surgery.
So, 13 surgeries so far. I cannot remember anything form Jan 2014 to late April 2014 and have some random memory issues that I term ‘anesthesia brain’.
June 10 I had lost 160 lbs and was feeling great. Went to Emory for a check up and I was given permission to resume riding…as long as I wear a binder. (I have a large hernia that will probably be with me for the rest of my life.)
I took gelding to trainer to see what he remembered and if he needed to stay for another 30 day refresher. Trainer rode him for 30 min and told me to get on an ride him there. Gelding did awesome and trainer said take him home and enjoy.
I have ridden him 3 times in the last week. He is doing great, we trot around like nobody’s business…but I bounce A LOT. No sign of panic attacks yet, and I feel my balance is much better since I lost the weight. Mom took picture (linked above) last night… My legs are out front. I keep thinking ‘chair seat’ but is that an english thing? I can’t remember. Should be a line from shoulder through hip to back of heal, yes?
I occasionally feel like my stirrup is too short, but this is the saddle I have used for a while so could it have changed that much?
Any help, advise, exercise recommendations greatly appreciated!