So, to make a very long story short, I had a CT scan last Wednesday, after many months of Dr’s visits, pain, swelling in my face, and just a general feeling of tired/nqr, that showed a tumor about the size of a golf ball inside the bone of my jaw. Thankfully, it’s not blatantly obvious when you look at me (that side looks a little puffy, but the tumor is well nestled where my cheek bone meets my jaw, right near the ear, so it’s pretty well hidden) - however, that’s also probably part of the reason why no Dr caught onto it until the CT scan was done.
Honestly, I’m not really sure why I’m posting about it except that I think I need some shoulders today, even if they are of the virtual variety. At this point, the only thing we know is that it’s a tumor. I have an appointment with another specialist next week. I assume he’ll run tests to find out whether it’s benign or malignant. But, in the meantime, the waiting and not knowing is weighing on me.
The good thing is that the Dr who reviewed the CT scan said that the way it grew makes him think it’s probably benign. He didn’t discount the possibility of Cancer, but said that most of the time, Cancer eats away at things as it grows. But this tumor has remained inside the bone, just pushing it out as it has grown (causing a ton of bone pain, some days more than others - my poor jaw bone!). So, that is a plus I guess.
The first 2 or 3 days after I was told about this, I was a hot mess. After the initial shock wore off, I felt oddly serene for a while. But today I’m not doing so well with it again. :no: Any words of experience or encouragement would be greatly appreciated today. I don’t normally need a whole lot of support (I’m pretty independent), but I know I need it today.