I’m sorry, too.
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I’m so sorry
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The worst part for me was during the week, I was off taking some vacation time. I came to the barn twice; once for his chiro appointment, and once more to drop off some hay cubes. That was on Thursday; I went to his stall and gave him a little cuddle and a kiss on the muzzle. I wasn’t up on Friday, then he was colicky on Saturday. I thought I was going to have more time. Earlier that week we went for a gallop in the hay field.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your horse. Colic is a beast. The vet was very kind and compassionate, and even told me he went to bed thinking about Matt, worrying if he would get a call that he had gone down. He said it was a very difficult case.
Matt is very stoic, but I could see the pain in his eyes. When I left the stall, I looked at him over my shoulder and he was just standing there with his head down.
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Just seeing this and so sorry you lost your special guy.
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I’m sorry, this was a rough ending. Sending hugs.
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So sorry for your loss.
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So very sorry for your loss.
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Oh, I am so sorry, @BrookdaleBay. That’s an awful call to have to make. But I am sure Matt knows he was loved until the end and that is the greatest blessing we can give them. Godspeed, Matt, and jingles for you.
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Thank you everyone for your kind words and support.
I talked to the vet today, a post-mortem was performed yesterday and it was discovered he had a twist in his intestine. I know I made the right choice, I’m now just wrestling with the guilt choosing to continue care for two and a half days. Of course we had no way of knowing, and he was showing no obvious signs of pain other then an elevated heart rate.
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Please don’t take yourself down that rabbit hole! Some horses may have bounced back and some of them just don’t want to tell us how bad it is (like a lot of old men 
) You don’t know until you know and you can’t hold what you didn’t know against yourself after the fact. Hindsight is an evil 20/20.
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I’m so sorry. I remember losing the old guy just a week shy of his 30 th birthday. He passed the night before the vet was to come. I beat myself up for not getting the vet out the moment he was “off”, but it wouldn’t have changed the outcome.
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Everyone did what they believed was best at the time, and that’s all you can do. I’m sorry you didn’t get more time with your friend, but thank you for doing your best by him the whole way through. 
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I’m so sorry for your loss. 
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I know, you’re right, you’re right. He was so stoic the whole damn time, and he was such a fighter.
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you can only work with what you know at the time.
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I’m so very sorry for your loss.
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I know it’s impossible not to, but try not to beat yourself up over continuing his care. You had no way to know what was going on. Sometimes things just happen that we can’t control.
Many years ago, I was showing against a lovely five-year old, showing Training, schooling First, one of the last foals of my favorite stallion. He schooled fine one morning; by afternoon, he was colicky; by seven, he was on the table at the local vet hospital; by ten, he was gone. He was full of tumors, and no one could have ever known. He showed no symptoms or signs until that day.
Horses are stoic creatures, designed not to show pain. You did the best you could with what you knew at the time.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. You did right by him. {{{Hugs}}}
Just saw this–so sorry for your loss.
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Ah, I’m sorry. You did your very best for your horse, and so did the vets who cared for him. You did everything you could, and that’s enough. Be easy with yourself. I lost a mare this summer as well; I know it’s real hard.
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