(Apologizes beforehand for possible incoherence. Talking about this is triggering and can cause brain fog. )
Does anyone know a good lesson barn around Bucks County PA/Hunterdon County NJ (Or a little ways outside the counties) for nervous (Read: terrified) riders who want a from the ground restart? A dressage focus, or just general English riding!
Im worried if I go to a barn that knows my family that I wont get the restart I want because they know how I used to ride.
(YOU DONT HAVE TO READ THIS, ITS JUST BACKGROUND)
I’m a 20yo who hasn’t “properly” ridden in a few years (Maybe 4 or 5) and I realized (after having a breakdown in a stall mid-cleaning ) that I am terrified of riding. I can walk and trot and love trail rides, but the second my horse tenses up or stares into the distance I freeze and get so scared that they’re going to bolt. (I know exactly what incident caused this, and it’s actually part of my CPTSD)
I really want to start properly riding again, IE: Helping a horse carry themself properly and balancing not just sitting on a horse and letting them walk around.