Using an alter because I don’t like to share personal medical information.
This thread was an enormous light bulb for me. I have had numerous painful and serious accidents riding or on the ground related to a horse (always seems to be when I start to improve and have time, something stupid happens). Two of these accidents have reqired surgery, one required a trip to the trauma center in a helicopter and one required 15 weeks of bed rest to heal. But, true to my stubborn nature, I always get back on and start riding again.
In the past, getting back on usually required that the first few tries, someone led the horse like I was on a child’s pony ride. I would gradually progress to walking towards someone who caught the horse, then on up to trotting (only). The level of anxiety was off the charts – heart palpitations, sweating, inability to breathe, sobbing. Even after many months of slow, easy riding on slow, easy horses, I would still be quite anxious while on the horse.
This last time, none of those things have happened. I’ve gotten back into riding, after almost a year off with. I’m still a little tense, but have been able to use the tools that I’ve gotten (thank you Jane Savioie) to overcome the anxiety and have a productive ride. One hair raising event (and I was only a witness – my horse was a prince) got my adrenalin rushing (so much I almost vomited), but I was able to get on the horse right away and complete a successful ride. Slowly getting back into it, but I am way more successful.
I have been wondering what is different this time, and when I read SWatson’s post regarding SSRI’s as a potential treatment – that MUST be it! I’m about 2 months into a LexaPro prescription. LexaPro is an SSRI used for depression (why I was using it), but also for anxiety disorders. After reading through all this, I firmly believe that is making a huge difference for me.
So, SWatson – you’re a successful therapist even long distance! Thank you so much for posting on this thread. Others, talk to someone about your fears and possible solutions – I dislike taking medications, but I have to tell you, this unexpected benefit will keep me on the LexaPro for a long time.