I guess the purpose of this post is to vent I don’t know.
I lost my lab/rottie mix Panda in April to hemangiomasarcoma. I didn’t even know he had it until he suddenly collapsed at home. I’ll save all the terrible details but after 6 hours and two ER vets he went rapidly down hill again after already coding once and at that point I let him go to stop the suffering because there was nothing we could do.
My guilt comes from the fact that I was in such shock and grief that I didn’t stay when they put him down. I had already been escorted out during the CPR after nearly collapsing and said my goodbyes after they had brought him back.
I just hope he didn’t think I abandoned him in his final moments. He deserved better. I always here of people staying till the bitter end and I couldn’t.