After giving the OP the benefit of the doubt, offering suggestions and seeing others try and encourage her with their stories, I read this, a post by her on a totally different thread:
[QUOTE=huntr_eq_blonde;7552847]
I too have been struggling with MAJOR health problems for the past 9 years; they likely aren’t as life-threatning as yours, but life-altering, nonetheless. Finding a prospect is great, but you still have to board, vet, shoe, train, lesson , etc. Don’t understand why people don’t get I don’t have the money for that. And what happens when, God willing, I go back to school. What happens to the horse. I’d have to try and sell it. You have to understand ROI, and it isn’t happening in this economy. Plus, OTTB are to strong for my chronic neck and shoulder pain, and excessive pulling (which a OTTB will be used to because they don’t want to slow dow and are heavy on the forehand) would flare up my tigger points, TMJ, and fibromyalgia…and put me in bed for days.[/QUOTE]
And this:
[QUOTE=huntr_eq_blonde;7552780]I wish I lived in Canada and could ride for you. While I got crucified for seeming entitled on a different post, I have yet never having owned a horse, took lessons on sales horses, riding (and leasing) the crazies or greenies no one else wanted to for the past 13 years, and only showed (and did well under disastrous curcumstances due to bad “trainers”) local B shows about 4 times, I would kill for an opportunity like yours. Am a solid 3’9" rider who was looking to move up, but leasing a 4’+ horse in my areas is $$$.
Plus, if someone was giving me the opportunity to catch ride a nice horse, who in their right mind would even think about charging the owner for that ride.[/QUOTE]
I feel sorry for you, OP. You will never ever appreciate all that you have. Take up a different sport or concentrate on getting healthy enough to go back to college, out of your parents’ house and and their financial support. You have travelled more and ridden more and had more opportunities than most people.