Bear with me, this is long and rambling and I’m kind of just thinking “aloud” but also asking WWYD.
I have a truly beloved 18year old jumper. I bought him when he was 15 to help me jump bigger. He’s been so amazing, very sound, getting me around the 1.0m like a true schoolmaster star (huge jumps for me!).
Well this year he gets a minor tendon injury in turnout end of January (superficial digital flexor). I ultrasounded him, did the rehab, he came back feeling amazing, very energetic (a little too much), we finally started jumping, probably 4 or 5 times…….and then he comes back in from turnout with a GIANT swollen tendon. I haven’t had the vet image it yet, it was so swollen in th beginning, it’s been getting better but looks to be a similar situation on the other leg….
So…. Is he telling me he needs a new situation? We have small individual turnouts and they get pretty limited time out there. It’s my least favorite thing about my current spot. In the summer they get about 4-6 hours a day max, in the winter it’s more like 2.
There’s not money for another horse and I promised this wonderful animal I would provide him a good retirement. I do not think by any means he’s ready to retire, but perhaps it’s time for a lower level job and some (more important) big turnout. I’m also paying full board and training for a horse I’ve barely ridden since January and that really stings.
I love my barn and my barn family. I even decided to stay when I realized I wasn’t in a program that could get me to the 1.10m with this horse because I’m so happy here otherwise. But I can’t keep justifying the cost if he’s going to keep going lame, and maybe it’s time to find a place we can trail ride and then bop over a couple jumps, maybe haul in some for lessons. Then I could slowly save up for another horse…
I’m very capable of maintaining this animal without a trainer if my goals are to do some dressage and jump a little 2’6”. No so much if I want to pretend like we’re going to show at the 1.0m but it kind of feels like that ship has sailed.
Am I just being dramatic?? I mean, duh but too much? Do I just need to give it a couple months to see how this new rehab goes? I’m spiraling a little bit because I’ve had to cancel my summer plans and struggling living in the unknown but I also want to make sure I’m doing right by him.