This might be a long one. This past month as brought a lot of stuff . We went on our London honeymoon, the week after we got home my grandfather with dementia passed away and I have been undergoing more specialists, tests, more specialists, and more tests.
Ive posted here and there, but up until recently, I have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, POTS, Raynauds and degenerative disc disease.
Two days before London, I had a big muscles spasm in my back that unfortunately turned into some of the worst back.spine pain I have had to date. Made for interesting travel, but we still saw lots and enjoyed ourselves.
The DAY we left for London, I had to see a hematologist/oncologist due to concerning low platelet counts and testing positive for all antiphosohlipid antibodies in July. He ran a TON more bloodwork and I came back again positive lab wise for antiphospholipid syndrome (APS). Its an autoimmune blood clotting disorder and you have to have positive lab tests so many weeks apart to make sure its not a fluke. I passed with flying colors. It usually gets picked up clinically when women have miscarriages/pregnancy complications Ive always known kids werenāt for me so no clinical symptoms for me thankfully. Since I dont have both, my doc put me on a low dose aspirin for now after downgrading that from initially thinking xeralto thankfully.
Along with that bloodwork came a bunch of positive/abnormal antibodies for lupus and some other weirdness. On Friday last week, I saw a nephrologist for high creatine numbers though that has been pretty consistent over the years. She said she didnt want to slap the chronic kidney disease diagnosis on me yet, but sent me off for a kidney/bladder ultrasound and will have bloodwork to tack on with my now quarterly bloodwork. Ultrasound came back good thankfully so Ill take that. I see my rheumatologist again at the end of Jan to go over all these new findings and see if I get yet another new diagnosis.
All that to set the stage. The past few weeks I have been down and exhausted. Moreso than I ever remember feeling. Im sure Im processing my granpdas death even though we lost āhimā a long time ago. My family is doing well and the funeral events all went as smoothly a possible which Im thankful for. My grandma feels āfreeā now from being his caretakers which I think is a good thing for her. Work has been higher stress than normal with a new manager thats a pain, but I have made some headway there so that is in part mitigated for a bit anyways.
When I got the disc degeneration disease diagnosis this summer, I got my medical marijuana card (yay OH for finally passing the rec law ). Prior to that, I smoked weed a couple times a few years ago and didnt like the smoking part so Ive gone the edible/tincture route. I started this in the evenings instead of a muscle relaxer and much prefer it (all doctors are aware). I had mainly been using hybrids or indica strains which do give me a sleepy effect (not something I take if I need to be āwith itā.
With everything coming to a head, I decided to give sativa a try. I had previously steered away from it because itās often described as an upper, which usually dont work well for me having/being medicated for heart palpitations. Im off this week and started taking it during the day to see what would happen. NIGHT AND DAY DIFFERENCE. I donāt know exactly what it is helping withā¦chronic fatigue for sure, brain fog, maybe some level of depression?? If anyone else has experienced anything like this, I would love to hear your thoughtsā¦any insight into what exactly its helping with would be helpful and its really hard for em to describe it. Also interesting, Im much less inclined to snack. I think in the past I would get some (false) relief when I ate, so watching calories was always on my radar.
Ive gotten more done in the last three days than I have in what feels like a year. Prior to the sativa, even just thinking about all the things on my to do list was overwhelming let alone actually doing anything I didnāt HAVE to do or REALLY want to (like spending time with my fluffy fjord). I wish I could pinpoint what itās actually helping with. Without it, I felt like I had physical pressure in my head weighing me down, but not headaches. I never felt awake (I do with the sativa). My brain felt dull and everything thing (even little) felt incredible draining. Now, it feels like the light is on! Itās probably got to be a combo of issues.
In any case, I am more ahead of the holidays than EVER. I just addressed envelopes for Christmas cards (hopefully the COTH list will be coming soon)! Looking forward to secret Santa shopping, got a jump on family Christmas shopping. I have meal prepped several recipes to get us through Dec without worrying about staying on top of healthy meals at home, and I has 4 recipes for baking for the holidays Im getting ready for. Itās wonderful to feel that ānormal thingsā donāt take every last ounce of what little energy I have.
Thanks to anyone still reading. I know I have a lot more ahead of me in my chronic health journey, but itās nice to share something positive in that space. The only other break Ive gotten is when I started on beta blockers in 2014 for the heart palpitations that immediately relived the choleric headaches I was getting due to slightly elevated BP and resting heart rate.