OK, I have taken lots of benzos over the years. Before you think I’m a drug addict, everything was prescribed, and one was prescribed by a doctor who told me just to take as much as I needed without actually telling me anything about the drug. That was one of the worst experiences ever, once I realized how much he was giving me and had to withdraw.
Benzos aren’t without risk. They are very very addictive. Of course not everyone will get physically addicted to them, but if taken on any sort of regular basis, it is a very real possibility. and withdrawl can cause seizures and other odd neurological conditions.
That said, they can work very very well if taken responsibly and in the appropriate dose. Of the ones I have taken, I prefer Xanax personally. It gives better relaxation for me, without the loopy side effects I’ve had from Valium or ativan. Klonipin never did a very good job at relaxing me, but then again it was prescribed for dizziness and sleep. That’s the one I ended up addicted to though, so it might have worked better had I not been told to just take it whenever I felt dizzy or needed to sleep and couldn’t.
You do have to play around with the dose some, and start small. With the Xanax, I had the smallest dose available, and I was cutting them in 1/4. You can’t drink with them either, as you can kill yourself combining CNS depressants.
I too have show nerves, and with a hot-headed mare, my nerves can ruin our day quickly. Even though I am OK on horses who are not so sensitive, with her anything I can do to relax is good for us. Showing is so expensive that I also put some pressure on myself to do well so I don’t feel that I’ve wasted the money, and that can also lead to more nerves. I’ve not used benzos for show nerves myself, as I’ve not had access at the same times as I was showing. But I absolutely would consider a tiny dose of something I had used in the past. Just like some people teach a horse to clip using a mild sedative to take the edge off, I think that if taken as a short-term thing to get over the show nerves, it could be very helpful. You just have to know which one works for you and at what dose.
FWIW, I’ve not had any issues with the tiny dose of Xanax affecting my memory. I was very very functional when I did take it. Valium and ativan, not so much though. Valium made me hallucinate, and ativan just knocked me out in enough dose to do anything.