I am so sorry. What a blessing you were to each other. She’ll be waiting for you at the gate. <3
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I’m so sorry.
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When you first posted the other night, I was so hopeful everything went well when i didnt an update. Then I saw your later post. Like many others, I felt like you let us get to know her through your blogs. Thank you for sharing your awesome horse with the huge personality. I happened to be listening to Hamilton “tell them how to say goodbye” when i saw your update and the tears were freely flowing for you.
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It’s never easy, but hopefully you have a good support system in person.
You certainly have all of us rooting for you online!
So, so sorry to hear about Nikki. Count me among those who followed your adventures and felt like I knew her a little bit through your blog.
Your post made me emotional because my once-in-a-lifetime horse is leaving for another home this week, and it tears me up that I can’t make sure he’ll be ok (I’ve ridden and taken care of him for 8 years, but don’t own him).
And it made me think that, while you weren’t able to give your mare the perfect ending you wanted, it’s a wonderful thing that you were able to keep her so long and give her a life doing what made her happy, where she knew she was loved every single day. I don’t think any horse (even the most DEMANDING of chestnut princesses), could ever have asked for more. <3
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Your blog was such a beautiful tribute to Nikki. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing the story of your journey together over the years. It was clear you really were soulmates.
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Simply beautiful.
…and I hope one day… when the time is right, you ride and write again.
Bolding mine - people keep saying this to me, and it confuses me. I’m so sad, and NOTHING will feel like sitting on WM, but can you imagine how pissed she’d be if she put all this time into training me properly and then I never put that education to use after she left? She’d come down from where she is just to yell at me!
I need to finish grad school and then finish vet school and then hopefully do an internship & residency, and then maybe it’ll be time to look for a youngster to bring along to jump the big sticks again. 
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Hmphf! I’m quite sure you meant to say, “and then it will be time to finally buy the one that PNW has already handpicked for me…” 
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Beautiful. I’m typing this with tears streaming down my face. What an amazing tribute to your Wonder Mare!
I am SO sorry for your loss. I always enjoyed reading your adventures and loved your heartfelt tribute to her just now. She was very special but you are special too, for seeing in her what most people would not have. Together you were invincible. I am sorry for the tragic ending, I know how you feel, wanting to have it be a decision you could make and be there with her and spoil her. I had my first horse die horribly/traumatically as a spry 32yo and I had so much guilt and sadness about it, but unfortunately that is sometimes life with animals, and especially horses. Try to focus on the amazing life and adventures you shared together. My heart breaks for you and your family with this loss, and also the loss of Duckie so recently too. Sending hugs.
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Your blog was beautiful. I definitely cried reading it. I have also loved a redheaded OTTB mare and am forever changed. Hugs to you. And thank you for sharing.
I’m so sorry for your loss! You and Nikki have been a really big personal inspiration to me over the years, especially in my moments of self doubt. Thanks for sharing so much over the years, I really appreciate you two <3
Thank you for sharing your journey with us, it’s been such a joy to read.
Truly a special partnership you had. Deepest condolences
