Agree with this.
a few bad distances would be a super ride for me haha (rather than EVERY approach a bad distance)
I mean honestly we all have bad rides, sometimes I sit on my big WB and whine to myself in my head that my horse isnt turning properly, and then realise Im just sitting there - like no leg on, no contact - nothin
Good on your for recognising you need help. Hypnotherapy might be worth looking at too