Properetiquette -
I’ll start by saying I’m on your side. I know a lot of people’s comments are upsetting you but you have to understand where they are coming from. Experience.
I’d venture to say just about every chick on this board had a dream very similar to yours. We all romanticized about the horse world at one point or another. Then reality sets in. Reality doesn’t mean giving up, it simply means realigning goals.
The journey in the horse world is a long one. Think of it as exactly that, a huge planet. The opportunities to go all sorts of directions in the horse world are countless. You have to be willing, while keeping that same drive you have now, to keep pushing but take what comes. Then, you keep pushing some more.
Personally, I think aiming for the big Eqs is short-sighted. It’s a series for juniors. Done. Granted, it gives those riders a really great leg up in the industry and in some cases, some short-lived time in the spotlight and for hundreds of others, the road ends there. Seriously.
I will tell you what I told a student of mine years ago. She was crying in the back seat about not owning her own horse. She’d never owned her own horse but she had a decent Beval saddle, all the clothes - she completely looked the part. And, thanks to me and my very generous clients, we all kept a ride under her butt. I even nominated her for (and won) the VHSA scholarship which awarded her monies she could apply to riding with the trainer of her choice. I hooked her up with a very notable trainer in our area. Yet there she was, crying about how bad her situation was amongst the very people that had given her free rides on their horses. Yeah, I felt bad for the kid but we were all doing our best to keep her in the fold.
So, I explained to her that horses were always going to be different for her. She’d be getting rides and lessons and so forth, but she’d always have to go about it a different way. Differently than the other kids. Is that so bad? No. Pretty much same experience, different path to get there.
So, I like your spirit of going out on this board for help, but, you won’t get it here. These people are fierce, some helpful, some rude and relentless (which is why I sometimes refer to the COTH as The Circle of the Hyenas). But what they all share is the experience of following a completely different path to get to what they do with horses. So, underneath all that nipping and biting, they are right.
One thing that I don’t think I’ve seen anyone mention is, where are your parents in all of this? I assume they support you to a certain point if you’ve gotten this far but you really, really need a lot of support from parents if you want to do this as a young person.
There is one fact that you can be certain of - as long as you don’t go cuckoo and run off with boys… you’ll have horses in your life if you want them there. Keep them there.
Now, if I were you, here’s what I’d do. I’d take that $4000 saddle and I’d sell it. If it is a $4000 saddle, I’d imagine it is the sort that holds its value quite well. I’d sell it and hope to get between $2500 and $3000 for it. I’d also sell any other extra crap you can do without.
You take that money you make from your saddle and you start now, looking for a place near you where you can get excellent instruction. Trust me, they’ll have saddles you can ride in. You need to look at the Medals results and find the trainers that coached those people. Visit the barns, pick one. Forget about going as a working student. They almost NEVER hold up their end of the bargain. You begin taking lessons off of that money and then you work somehow and save to do some intensive training in the summer with them, and, if you trust them, you can consider a working student position with them if it is an option.
From there, you’ll have to count on luck, networking and drive. If you are a decent, hard-working rider and your trainer doesn’t help put something under your butt somehow, you need to consider finding another trainer or do more goal-realignment. But I know (and I wish I could remember her name) that the COTH did a story on a girl who won some medal or another and doesn’t even own a horse. She did it all through catch riding BUT, she had a connected trainer who kept horses under her butt.
The message here - you need to work through people you know. Not people you don’t know (like here). The foundation for getting rides is being a good rider. Plain and simple. So, make your goal to align yourself with a good, proven, top trainer in your area. You have to aim as high as possible in that area. And most of all, you really, really need the support of your parents. You’ll parent-provided transportation to get you there and you’ll need some monetary support from them.
Don’t strap yourself with a horse right now. Even if it is a loaner. There are tons of kids in the big eqs that go out on catch rides. The key is, how they got that catch ride. The owner of the horse trusts the trainer they loaned it to and they trust that the trainer stands behind the kid’s riding abilities.
This is really long, sorry - but again, don’t make the big eqs your end all be all. Think much farther past that. Another poster said it already (was it Bee Honey?) - focus on being a good rider first. That is your foundation. Not that horse.