Dear Lisa,
I haven’t posted to you before, but have been reading.
I know the roller coaster ride well, as I was widowed in 2000 at the age of 38 when my husband died of cancer. I am so awed (and rather envious too!) of the support you have received on this board. I was in a new area at the time, and really had no one there.
I know I do not truly know what you are experiencing now, as nobody can who hasn’t actually been there, but from the bottom of my heart I send you the very best. And hopefully, a small piece of wisdom.
No matter what you are feeling at any given time, the thoughts, the emotions, hope, anger, despair, resentment, whatever, it is OKAY. People will say the most ignorant of things sometimes, even though their heart is in the right place.
And often some “words of encouragement” will bring anger quicker than anything. Other mothers who have been where you are, will have felt exactly as you do. And I would strongly encourage you to seek them out. The only people who truly understood me, I actually found online in a grief support group for widow/ers. They became my family.
I’m sure there are moms out there who would love to share their experiences and feelings with you, who can offer their support, encouragement and total understanding of where you are, and where you will be in the future with Aiden’s care.
My very, very best to you, and prayers for strength to accomplish all you need to do (the human body can be AMAZINGLY strong when under stress!) and prayers for Aiden’s recovery and long, full life. Sincerely, Diana
Life is short, do it now. www.dianasart.com