Last week my horse scratched her eye. She developed a corneal ulcer and was taken to the vet. The vet examined it, cultured it, and sent us home with some atropine, antibiotics, and pain meds to be given every 4 hours. He said it was a very bad ulcer, about as bad as they can get. The horse is in a lot of pain and has started giving me trouble with putting the ointments in her eye, so we have an appointment to have the lavage system put in her eye next week. Even with the lavage system though, the meds will have to be delivered every 4 hours.
My problem is this. I am a new grad nurse and am fixing to start working full time night shifts this weekend. I have barely been able to give her the meds every 4 hours (have missed some) and I know when I start working I’m definitely not going to be able to. I have a long commute so I’ll basically be able to give them to her before I leave and when I get home, so 2x a day which I know is not nearly enough. I live with my parents but they also work full time jobs and will not be able to give the meds as often as needed. She is in a lot of pain and from reading posts on here, I have seen that it can take months for this to resolve, and that’s with giving the meds exactly as directed.
So basically what my question is is would it be terrible to just go ahead and remove her eye? We are already close to $400 in vet bills and it hasn’t even been a week. The horse is retired due to ligament injuries and is just a pasture pony. I feel like this would be the best decision but I still feel horrible about it. I just don’t want her to be in so much pain. I have not brought it up to the vet but I feel like they would think I am a horrible person and am not trying hard enough to save her eye… Sorry for the long post but any advice would be greatly appreciated!!