Awww, Pam! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It must be so scary.

I decided to “vacate the premises”, somewhat voluntarily, yesterday off my guy. (Hey, Merry and Beezer! Can I call him “Ken-Cow”???) The ring had been emptied of jumps earlier in the week and I’d been so proud of him. Will and Riley, (two previous lease horses), would have totally freaked at a ring void of jumps!!! Yesterday, my daughter and I were riding together, along with another child from our barn, when two fellow boarders commenced the re-building of the new course. Imagine Ken-Cow’s reaction to jumps walking by themselves and then just standing there all by their lonesome’s???
Suffice to say, his eyes got as big as platters, he grew at least a couple of hands, and his heart was pounding like I couldn’t believe. He still hadn’t totally blown yet, but I knew it was coming…I truly didn’t want my daughter to see her mother catapulted across the arena, (not that I wanted to land on the ground either, mind you), so I decided to get off. My son only got on once after seeing me have a bad crash. I tend to doubt whether it would have had the same affect on my daughter!
But, it just plain wasn’t worth the risk of that, or of hurting myself, or of him getting loose and one of the children being hurt. Ok, so I’m a wussy chicken too…
It’s been almost two years since he got me off twice in one session and I still remember it. I consider myself lucky that I didn’t get hurt then… 
Anyway, I just wanted to get that off my chest. Hopefully, now that the ring will look “normal” again, he won’t remember the moving jumps!
(I had been sooo proud of myself, when last weekend, Ken-Cow did a mighty leap through the air when we were cantering and I didn’t panic. I had just kicked him and kept cantering. Oh well, maybe I should start a new thread of wussy chickens who have greenies?
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Pam, I will be thinking good thoughts for you, big time!!!