This is my only insight into that type of drug addiction:
Many years ago I had a bad horse wreck with a TBI and I shattered both my forearms. I was transported to the big teaching hospital/Level 1 trauma center. They decided not to try a surgical fracture repair but set my arms as is, while I was more or less conscious.
Before they put my arms in traction devices, they gave what I assume was a whooping big dose of morphine. Because when it hit, this warm flush, like stepping in bath water, started at my toes and swept up through my entire body, along with a feeling of incredible peace and well-being. While on my back on a gurney, I wriggled with pleasure and made happy moaning noises. The ER nurse beside me said grimly āThatās what makes an addict. It never feels that way again and they spend the rest of their life chasing that high.ā I donāt remember them setting my arms, because I was in a lovely morphine induced stupor.
I have had morphine again since that first time, and sheās right - itās didnāt have that incredible sensation. It was good pain relief, but gave me a horrible drug hangover and just wasnāt worth it.
There are now much better options for sedation and acute pain, I doubt Iāll ever have it administered again.
But that ER nurseās words have always stayed with me: āSome people spend the rest of their life chasing that first high.ā <<<<Thatās what the first time being a mistake means in some cases.
I do believe that some people are wired differently and are more susceptible to addiction. I am not one of those people. But I can see someone who had my experience seeking out that high when they were no longer hospitalized.
My guess is they have been tasked with finding anything untoward they can to help counteract 19,000 pages of discovery. I doubt the frequent pop-ins by two others have yielded anything of merit.
That happened to me fairly recently too! An amazing last resort dose of morphine in the IV and I was on cloud 9. My nurse said exactly the same thing! 24 hours later I received another dose and it was nothing like the first one. Isnāt that interesting?
Your post came across to me as suggesting that if only MB/SGF had a contract, these boarders wouldnāt have been a problem. Iām not sure she lacks references. Lots of problematic people have references too.
I think, eventually, these boarders would be a problem no matter the contract, the references, or the futile attempts to not raise their ire.
You may be on to something. Surely her parents would seek mental help for her? It must be awful, to have your mind constantly churning, churning churning. Not to mention lonely. Get her some professional psychiatric and addiction help for Godās sake. She has the second half of her life left yet to live. I cannot imagine how exhausting it would be to live like this. At some posh rehab clinics, families are included in the healing process.
Iām guessing JH will be the next one on their list to dream up angles. Theyāve gotten all the mileage they can out of RC and AB and hopefully MHG at this point.
Yes, because I was in a ton of pain and Iāve never had an allergic reaction like that before. (Or since). But I was already in an ER, and they handled it quickly and effectively. They were pretty awesome. The bigger problem became what painkillers they could give me because they decided to rule out all opioids/opiates to be safe.
Now, I probably never would have tried heroin anyway, but after that, no freaking way.
Very. And it must be a fairly common experience in an ER setting. Remarkable that the nurses said nearly the same thing.
Must be tough on them as professionals giving that shot, watching the patientās response and wondering if theyāve changed the arc of that personās life for the worse.
I will admit eons ago in the late 60ās I was around lots of psychedelics and was frequently tempted to try LSD, but I witnessed and had to help several having bad trips to the point the risk outweighed the apparent beautiful sensory perceptions. āRecreationalā drugs are entirely too dangerous IMO.
just because you are paranoid does not mean they are not actually out to harm you.
And with the kind of people Bob and Rob know, the more security the better.
And that makes me wonder. When Bob was dong her Ninja thing all barefoot out there, did she paint her feet black to go with her black ninja outfit or were her pale white feet like glowing against her dark black outfit?
WOW! This must mean that I am being trained by Steffen Peters, Shannon Peters, Carl Hester, Charlotte Dujardin, Kasey Perry Glass and Debbie McDonald. I have pictures taken with them all, so that makes it true.
Sheilah