You articulated my exact feelings which I am terrible at articulating.
I started riding at about 7 and never stopped. Started showing locally in 4-H and local stock horse circuit shows a few years after and by the time I was done with high school, I was burnt out from it. I went to a college with an equestrian program and started my freshman as a double major (the second being equine studies), and quickly dropped it. I saw that many of those in the program either had it or didn’t, and the degree really wasn’t going to change that. So I dropped that major and just continued to take a couple college level riding lesson courses each semester which was wonderful. I showed jumpers once while I was there and was on the drill team, but that was it.
Through my riding in college, I ended up getting connected with a now very good friend, that was looking for help exercising her horses at her home farm. I rode with her for 16 years until I got Charlie and it was all pretty laid back which was so wonderful. It was my relax time.
Since I have gotten Charlie, my main goal for him as a 3 year old was to be a good citizen and learn his basics on the ground and under saddle. Other than that, we pretty much just have fun and “just” ride! We have miles of trails which we spend a lot of time on riding and ground driving. I take occasional dressage lessons, mainly when we accomplish something and need to figure out what’s next…but will no real timeframes or pressure.
Otherwise, he is just my buddy. He is turning into a pretty nice jack of all trades which is awesome in my mind. I am always happy to go to the barn, a lot of times I may not be motivated to ride while I am at home but when I get to the barn, I do it happily. It all helps to keep my head clear and lets me disconnect from from work and the crazy covid world we are still living in. Its also been great socially too, I have made some amazing friends since I have gotten back into horse ownership.