GPer, Time is the real healer here. It will take time. Accidents happen to everyone. Once what happened to you, could have happened to me. Multiple people not paying aattention to dog’s location, everyone thought the other guy shut the gate. Dogs got out. it was only luck, and the dog’s love of people that saved them from getting hit by a car. When we finally realized they were gone, we found them with neighbors from “down the road, around the corner” lapping up water and stranger’s petting.
While time is healing you, try to turn outward. Inward thinking, and the self-loathing that can accompany it are the worst things you can do. Turn outward, think of others and do what you can to help them. All my best.
