I’ve had my mare two years and it’s been anything but easy, nothing that is her fault. She ended up with a suspensory strain about 6 months after I bought her then I ended up in a bad car accident and a year later still recovering from my injury. During the suspensory we discovered she had mild spots of kissing spine which don’t seem to impact her soundness. We think the suspensory was from bad shoeing.
My mare is 9 year old OTTB who requires a lot of turnout and in the midwest that’s hard to come by. She’s nearly an hour from me. I work full time so it’s extremely difficult to make it out during the week. The barn isn’t the greatest and to be in a nice place closer to my house I’m looking at minimum $900. I’ve been in so much pain the past year due to the accident that my confidence is extremely low and I’m afraid of getting hurt. I’m extremely stressed out all of the time and really thinking it’s time to let go of this part of my life. She’s currently in training, flatwork only as I was wanting to learn dressage.
How do I make that decision and not feel guilt or like I gave up? How do I find my mare a good home knowing her physical issues? She also is anxious and stall walks. I would only sell her to a forever home but I was going to be her forever home so nothing is guaranteed. Maybe I shouldn’t give up yet? I just don’t know anymore but I know I am miserable and I want to do right by my mare.