Ever since I was injured in a fall around 15 years ago, I’ve dealt with a fear of falling (and of being injured again, which I really have to watch due to my job now) ever since. Upon my return to hunters after a decade-long break, I unfortunately developed a new fear, which is falling into a jump. Knock on wood, it has never happened yet, but the few times I’ve seen it happen or someone has showed me a video of it, it looks extremely painful and like an easy way to get injured.
So, to those of you who HAVE fallen into a jump, is it something to stress over? I’m sure it isn’t pleasant, but is it the catastrophic and horribly pain inducing event my panicky brain has built it up to be?
Also, for anyone who has also dealt with a fear of falling and fear of jumping, what helped you to move past it? I am becoming incredibly frustrated at the fact that it has been so many years and my fear has only yo-yo’d and even gotten worse in ways, between getting older and realizing I’m not invincible and that serious accidents can just as easily happen to me as they can to anyone else, simply not being the rider I used to be and not being able to use my body as well or pick up on things as quickly (and so things I used to be able to sit with ease can now catch me off guard more easily, and I simply just don’t have the seat I had before), and also now having responsibilities I worry about not being able to fulfill if I do get injured. I enjoyed hunters so much when I was younger and really miss that, but haven’t been able to completely move past this fear, even with excellent trainers that have helped me a lot, as well as the best and most steady school horses.