Hey all! First time posting and made a separate account, just to make personal details private. Advice is highly appreciated!
I am a junior who has been riding and serving as a working student for my current trainer for around four years. I do not have the means to afford a horse at the level that I would like to compete at and have felt incredibly lucky to have found a trainer that is willing to make my dreams a reality. As her working student, she has allowed me an unofficial free lease on one of her former project horses for about three years. Said horse was out of work for about a year before I started riding him, and had an unsuccessful prior career in his former discipline. Through my schooling rides and instruction in lessons, the horse is now competing and winning on the local A circuit.
I more than work off all of my rides, and spent several summers working at her barn 8 am-5 pm, five or six days a week. While in school I work five days, from 4 pm to around 9 on weekdays, and the full day on Saturday. I also teach one beginner lesson on Saturdays. Said trainer has a side business that I also assist with. When working I do not receive breaks and do not have time to eat lunch when working full days. If I come for a lesson and expect to leave after, my trainer acts annoyed by the fact that I will not do more work, even though my ride is fully paid for.
For a while, I have been wary of this situation, and try to limit the number of hours I work to a reasonable amount. This is a complicated situation, however, as the trainer does not have any employees, and mostly relies on her working students to do all of the labor for the barn. I feel obligated to work and help out, or else the barn work will not get done.
I have also recently started bringing two more horses back into work for her, one former upper-level dressage horse, and a Grand Prix jumping prospect who was rehabbing from an injury. She does not have time to ride these horses herself, and I am, quite frankly, the most advanced rider at the barn. She hopes to lease these horses out once they are back in shape. However, she has recently been complaining that I am not working off my schooling rides on these horses, even though I am furthering their training and bringing them back into work to benefit her.
This is not to say that I am not incredibly grateful for my trainer, because I am. She has brought me further in a year than I have progressed in four years at another barn. She is a highly accomplished equestrian and is remarkably intelligent and perceptive– her knowledge or expertise is not the issue here.
I have also had further conflicts with her when I attempted to discuss my work schedule. When I expressed concern at my hours she took the liberty of contacting my mother herself and spreading the claim that all I do is sit around and talk to clients when I am supposed to be working (obviously not true, and my mom was well aware of that). All of this put together would make me want to leave, except for several factors. The first is that I don’t think that I would be able to compete at the same level that I am now, or ever progress without the horse that I am riding now. I would not be able to go to another barn and lease or buy a horse to take into training with me. Secondly, she really is an incredible trainer, and I don’t know if I could find someone with the same level of expertise in the area. I also have my lesson students to think about, who I would not want to leave behind in that kind of environment. Finally, I have a lot of close friends at my current barn, and I know I wouldn’t be able to come back and see them if I ever left.
The fact of the matter is, if I leave my current barn, I will be completely burning a bridge. My trainer is the kind of person who will see it as a highly personal attack, and be horribly angry. If I had to guess, she would probably end up making things up about the reason I left and would give others a bad impression of me. Leaving would be no small feat, and I almost want to stay solely for the reason that I wouldn’t have to deal with the drama.
I recently had a disastrous experience at a larger A-rated show, that solidified my plans to look into other barns. My trainer didn’t show up to the show grounds until my division had already started, and left immediately after, leaving me to fully take care of her horse. I had some not-great rounds, due to the fact that she informed me I wasn’t allowed to jump until she was on site, yet she didn’t show up until minutes before I had to enter the arena. The next day she proceeded to scream at me because I had forgotten to bring his supplements into the stall area from where they were kept in the trailer, and she had to go get them herself.
Today I went out to visit an ammy friend of mine that used to ride with my current trainer. She now keeps her horse at a smaller boarding barn that I really enjoyed visiting. It was such a relaxed environment, which I was not at all used to, and the property was in much better condition than that of my current trainer. I was able to tour the facility and hop on my friend’s horse for a little bit.
She recently developed some health issues, so it doesn’t look like she will ever be riding her horse much past the trot again (which she is perfectly content with). He is an incredibly talented and impeccably bred dutch warmblood, who has jumped some bigger tracks in the past. Since his workload is going to be greatly reduced with her in the future, she offered me the opportunity to ride and compete with him, so that he is able to perform to his full potential. I have ridden him before, and my ride on him today was exceptional. He is such a talented horse, who I definitely click with, and I know he could be one to allow me to reach my competitive goals.
I am really tempted honestly, but don’t know if I should just stick it out at my current barn. I would be leaving a lot behind and making so many people angry with me if I left. But on the other hand, I haven’t felt like I did while riding today in a very long time. I loved the vibe of her barn, everyone I met was lovely, and the atmosphere didn’t have me constantly one step from a panic attack. But is it lazy of me to give up the working student position for the other barn? Is it just a necessary evil to get myself where I want to go? I am so so so conflicted, and honestly very anxious about the whole thing. I was hoping someone here on this forum would have some advice or insight, maybe having been in a similar situation themselves.
Sorry if I made any mistakes in posting, haven’t done this before!