You bring up some amazing points that helps me consider my framing around this. I am also secretly pleased to hear your comments on how challenging dressage is. As a junior who jumped a bit in lower level pony club (2’ to 2’3 really) and switched to pure dressage around 13, my first 18 MONTHS of dressage I did not canter off the lunge ONCE. I walked and trotted 1/hr a day 6 days a week often without irons on my dressage saddle for over a year. I fell off quite a few schoolmasters at the walk and trot as I accidentally asked for a lateral movement or they spooked at something and spun my weak butt right off! Dressage horses indeed can be quite hot!
I say that dressage is ‘safer’ as it is what I have FAR more training in. I as a rider am relatively green to over fences. I dare say I am an effective, soft, ‘beautiful’ rider at 2’6 and below, as I ride it as once dressage test with some hops. My eye for distances at the higher fence heights (3’ft +) is just… not as experienced. My most recent Show Jumping trainer commented after I rode for the first time after a 6 year break “someone very good and very European taught you dressage - I have very little corrections outside of general riding fitness. You ride better without irons, which makes me see that you’re used to a dressage length leg”
I rode a few horses unfortunately that did NOT take jokes because many trainers assumed my ‘stunning’ riding could translate to higher fence heights. For example, drop the height of a challenging course to 2’3 and I can halt in the middle of lines and canter out, I can roll back inside turns, that stun a lot of the jumper crowd (I have shown off and done a sloppy canter pirouette as a rollback to a tiny 2’3 oxer in a clinic). But seeing a distance to a long approach 3’3 oxer… I just sometimes freeze, second guess, or just lack confidence.
It also doesn’t help that I have a little bit of a visual disability where my depth perception is slightly impaired, uncorrectable even with Rx lenses, so I ride off ‘feel’, which is lovely until I don’t have enough experience at the height to know what the ‘feel’ should be!
A few individuals here have recommended that perhaps I find a good schoolmaster who can take a joke at a higher fence height, get comfortable with fence heights in grids, and get out of my head and perhaps practice what 300, 350, and 400 meters per min feels like on a gallop track. I admitted haven’t done that since I was a kid.
For context, I’m 30, not as fit as I used to be but 5’9 & ~140 lbs or less. I am long torso’d so especially over fences, if I don’t have enough neck in front of me due to my lack of experience over fences, I do not want to create a balance issue due to any inadvertent leaning of my upper body over fences for my mount. My heart mare was a KWPN cresty necked 16.1. If she didn’t have that neck, I would have been too ‘tall’ for her. Ideally, I’d like to not have to fight conformational issues of myself and my mount over fences. I also don’t enjoy super large horses, rode various 17.3 & 18h stepping down 2* horses and didn’t enjoy them much.
I take no sh*t from my horses on the ground - growing up my PC horse was a biter and kicker, I groomed with a dressage whip and I never hand feed treats to ANY animal. I may be a ‘mean mom’, but come hell or high water my animals MUST behave. I won’t purchase an animal that my ‘unhorsey’ partner cannot hold, supervised by someone for 2 minutes while I pee
tl;dr - I feel dressage is safer as I am far more experienced in the discipline. I like a very forward ride that I can hold contact with and half halt around to fences. I want my creature to have their own motor and ‘hunt’ jumps. I don’t enjoy demanding generation of every ounce of energy especially when I am slightly intimidated by the exercise at hand.