My beloved little Bonnie, the Siamese Princess of Everything passed away today. It was rather sudden.
She had been a little under the weather for a few days - nothing alarming, just slight loss of appetite and on Saturday night she basically fell off the cliff. Precipitious decline, took her to vet Sunday am, labs came back normal but with a very high white blood count and UA was normal as well. But she just kept getting thinner, more dehydrated and could not stand for more than a few seconds. Plus a host of other worrisome symptoms. She just wasn’t getting better - she was just getting worse. I took yesterday off because I thought this was it but she perked up. Today - no. Clearly much worse and not going to get better. So I made the decision and let her go.
I feel like my heart has been ripped out and stamped on. Can’t stop crying. I had to go to work because I am on their shit list right now but all I could think about was her alone and the possibility of her dying all by herself. Couldn’t stop crying at work and finally fled. If my boss tries to make something out of this it’s going to get very very ugly and very very loud.
I feel so miserable - I miss my little terror. 8 lbs of cat - 1000 lbs of attitude. I will miss her curled up behind my head at night, the demands for the best piece of popcorn and her refusal to give up my lap without a fight. I already miss her photo-bombing any computer session - I don’t know how she did it but she started off at the edge of the desk and ended up in the middle of the keyboard or with her face right in front of what I was working on - bright blue crossed little eyes burning holes in me - daring me to not pay attention to her tiny Siamese majesty.
I want my kitty back. This is killing me.
Bonnie Bramble Rose
Spring2007 - 7/12/22 1945 hrs
Sometimes older kitties can crash quickly. She had 15 great, loving years with you. Please try to take it easy and be kind to yourself. You have lost too many kitties in the past year! Thinking of you and sending hugs. 
