You’ve been super helpful to this point, so I figured I’d get your take on this:
I’m an adult re-rider. Been back in the saddle for about 3 years after 13 or so off. As a kid/teen, I was fearless. But my horse when I was a teenager took off during a lesson, and I mean we lapped the ring no less than 10 times. I stuck it (hoorah?) but it definitely stuck with me and put a fear of speed/spooking/the unknown in me and I cannot shake it for the life of me.
Specifically, I feel like I hold back forward horses or just don’t encourage forward movement (currently in lessons on a BTDT Schoolmaster who is re-teaching me the difference between fast and forward), I’m looky/anxious even if the horse I’m on isn’t, kindof pull back at upward transitions like in anticipation, and get really nervous jumping, or even doing ground poles, if it’s in a line. One single tiny jump or ground pole is no problem. But when there’s a line I totally freak.
Currently waiting to hear back from a sports psychologist, but looking for any insight/tips/things to read that you’ve got! I’ve gone all over the COTH boards, so I’ve already picked up a bunch of tips, but always looking for more insight on this. I feel like my nerves are really holding me back and preventing me from fully enjoying my rides.
Thanks so much!